Okay, so yesterday I came up had an idea, one of those ideas that way too good to be true, an idea that if I can make real will change my life drastically! One of those ideas I can’t share with just anyone because it ahs to do with creating something new in my industry. And so I talked to a couple people and actually have some support on this ( Read more... )

I am being consumed by coincidence and intuition today, overwhelmed by them even. I aa

This is a response to a friend’s entry:

Gentlemen and jackasses. This always has me think of Prince Mishkin in Dostoevsky’s, The Idiot. Mishkin was at the start of the story, what I thought, a gentleman, polite and cordial to even the brutish characters he met to the point where I saw him as timid, and then he fell in love. Love. He of course, ( Read more... )

One strange thing that I experienced this last year, 2008, was not being able to vote, not having the right to vote. Obama is in office now, a huge deal I suppose, and I had nothing to with it - even if I had wanted to cast my vote as a person who lives in the United States of America, I did not have the right to do so. The strange thing is looking ( Read more... )

For the past few days I’ve been watching Stanley Kubrick’s films. Yarbles, the shit that goes on in my head as I watch these films…I believe my life has changed courses, or, perhaps, the course of my life has become much more clear for me as I watched the movies, and I am not saying that the flicks changed the wiring of my brain but for whatever ( Read more... )

Where has my sense of humor gone? Why can I not find a joke in the mirror anymore? It sucks when I take myself so serious. Meh.

Everyone should date a model, at the very least briefly, because the reactions you have to photo graphs of other models, which before were just photos of some girl or guy  you will never meet ( Read more... )

Here’s what I’m dealing with, its something like PTSD but I wouldn’t call it that at all; I have memories which I can not get rid of and am having problems owning completely. I spent six years in prison, a valley of metal and concrete surrounded by fences with serpentine wire caps. I was not traumatized or anything in there - its just that I was ( Read more... )

I have an “employee”! I don’t like to say he is my employee, so I won’t, and I don’t like using real names, so I won’t, but his real name is Craig. He started about two months ago, and due to the wild string of events wrapped around the previous six to eight months he will be living at my home next month. My sister is moving out. I am not happy ( Read more... )

I noticed last night that I am really out of shape for the first time in about ten years, a bit more of a pot belly and no definition in muscle. This bothers me more than I would really like to admit; one: because vanity for some reason scares me like bad mojo, just is not something I am comfortable with; and two: I realize that I will not always ( Read more... )