Other than occasional boys in fast cars mooing at me as I lumbered down Main Street, I had become essentially invisible when I hit 300 pounds. But I had the Internet, my Fantasy Island, a place where Myspace angles and Photoshop were all it took to make me feel attractive. "All it took." Oh, Internet, if only you knew the amount of effort I put ( Read more... )

Once I was young and bold
and left hundreds of unmatched people out in the cold.That night he told me he chugged a few cups of bleach as a half-hearted suicide attempt at age 21. Feeling inspired, I seized the moment and described the night in Winter 2008 that I washed down drugs with enough vodka to die a half dozen deaths, but managed to get away ( Read more... )

Carrie. She said her name with a shaky half-smile. It was nearly midnight in the dead of a nauseatingly hot summer. I'd been taking an aimless moonlit walk when I found her. As we sat cross-legged on a patch of grass, I picked ticks from the legs of my jeans, not quite listening to her story, gazing up at the stars. She was living out of a van ( Read more... )

( Read more... )

i hereby declare my intent to participate in lj idol exhibit b!