We can't all be angels, crawling on our hands and knees because we've forsaken winglike attachments.  Some of us don't even recall the simplest way to open our mouth.  Some of us would drown in the desert. I want to be lost in the downpour, stuck in the mud, wishing I had worn rubber shoes.

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"The tragedy of life is not that the beautiful things die young, but that they grow old and mean."
-The Long Goodbye, Raymond Chandler

simple words
I miss you, I love you,
come home to me, soon. 
endlessly complicated in their meaning.

both of us are where we have chosen to be -
nine hundred glaring miles between.
now we grow restless in these floating cages we have built.

the weight and substance of your physical body, pressing me
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Just to note, before I go out to have tea with Mo...

I'm not trying to lose weight these days.  I'm trying to be healthier.  Often, the two go hand in hand though I suppose.

I like being chubby, I like being thick and grab-able.  It suits me.  When I got down to a size nine in high school, I looked gaunt and icky.  I don't need to be anything like ( Read more... )

Oh, internet.  You rascal, you.

Lots of things going on.  I know, I know, I still haven't recounted my trip (which was awesome, just to say).  I haven't babbled on about fandom for months (ashes to ashes - wtfuxors!!!).  I haven't talked about the changing face of my emotional barriers or the stack of paintings that are piling up in my studio.  I ( Read more... )

( been tellin' myself these jokes for so long )

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It doesn't have to hurt - being in love, being part of someone else's thoughts not necessarily at the same time that you are thinking of them.  But when it does, it is inspiring and creates an elation that endless happiness simply can't touch.  Climbing the mountain and tumbling down it become one and the same - our failures and accomplishments ( Read more... )

Katie West... sometimes you read my mind. 

Also, I effing LOVE this band (get it, love?  hahahahaha) and have been listening to their stuff pretty much on constant repeat lately.  Mmmm, need more shoegazer in my life.

And now, to spend another friday night in by myself.  Working on a halloween costume (or at least gathering the bits/makeup).  Also ( Read more... )