i now have a new livejournal... it is:

xburied_liex

so i finally can update my lj after my dad was being a dickhead... not much to say. car got impounded last night. went to nevada to hang out with jeff before hand.

minnesota here jessi and i come... off to minnesota to see stbls& somerset... will be back later tonight.

so who is jamming on their new fender acoustic guitar that they got for christmas? that's right, ME!!!

christmas fucking SUCKS!!! it brings these feelings i have, that i dont like, out. christmas should make you happy and excited, well i become sad and want to cry.

lately it seems that i am always out of place. is this normal for people at my age? am supposed to want to drink and get wasted all the time? im not really liking this feeling of seperation from people i want to hang out with.

it seems that lately, all that a lot of my friends want to do is drink. what happened to being innocent and having fun when sober or going to see a movie? why all of a sudden am i annoying... or have i always been and no one wanted to tell me?

http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=6721492&Mytoken=20041222112209

sometimes friends come in handy... most of them... when your not even expecting it. this particular friend is one that i love dearly... i dont ever not want to be friends with this person.

so last night on my way home from work i was thinking about some things. i realized how easy it would be to just let the car go out of control and crash. i realized how easy it is to just open myself up and let go of everything. just to let go of all this pain that i have... it would make everything better.