Comments | malakijr: swallow shit or ruin the entire afternoon?

malakijr

swallow shit or ruin the entire afternoon?

May 08, 2010 10:52

I am having a shitty day of shit from shit hell, with what promises to be another night of the same, followed by a day that will be slightl;y better (I hope) and another night of hell (though hopefully less shitty hell). So yes, I am tired and I am in pain and I am exhausted. I would come here and type simply the words "I give up," because that's ( Read more... )

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peskipiksi May 8 2010, 15:19:16 UTC

[insert magical sentence that will fix everything]

*hugs* I love you too.

malakijr May 8 2010, 15:26:17 UTC

I thought of you today. I was watching that episode of "Law & Order" that you and I snarked that one afternoon years ago ("Scallisi and Halsey I understand. Why Jefferson?" "...because it's easier to spell?") It made me smile.

peskipiksi May 8 2010, 16:27:11 UTC

LOL! :)

jackiesjunkie May 8 2010, 20:13:26 UTC

Love you too. <3

malakijr May 9 2010, 01:12:08 UTC

Love you. Love that icon, too!

nabba May 8 2010, 22:00:25 UTC

::hugs:: love you too babes. That's why I'm always around to listen. Sometimes that's enough. Hell, if I could, I'd take you in, though I'm sure you'd be miserable here and you probably wouldn't be able to find a job, since almost no one can, but you'd be welcome to stay with me when(?) I get my place.

I hope you get some good rest.

malakijr May 9 2010, 01:11:26 UTC

♥

*HUG* vacheestfachee May 9 2010, 00:43:49 UTC

I got nothin'.

Well, I can share a quote I think about often:
"It takes all I have to believe
in the mercy that covers me."

My life is way easier, but I still go around thinking "it takes all I have to believe ..."

Re: *HUG* malakijr May 9 2010, 01:10:58 UTC

I really really really love that song. And Jars of Clay in general. The line that always sticks out to me (well, besides all of them, really) is "What I need and what I believe are worlds apart." I think about that a lot because I'm always thinking "I need X to happen" when in reality, I always think I NEED certain things, but then I get them (or don't get them) and then discover I had no idea what I was talking about. It goes back to that Garth Brooks song "Unanswered Prayers." Just because I don't get the specific thing I'm praying for doesn't mean God doesn't care...it usually means that wasn't what I really needed and I'll discover that later. I'm trying not to pray so much "please let this happen" as "please give me the strength to go through WHATEVER happens" because when I think it can't get worse, it does, and when I think it's never going to get better, it does, but not in the way I thought it would.

I don't know if it makes sense. But thank you for reminding me of that song.

tara_pa May 9 2010, 01:31:13 UTC

Sorry you're hurting sweetie. Obviously, I don't know how it feels to be in your exact situation but I sure can relate about getting frustrated and work, and it sucks because I *need* to stay there. Nothing I leave to do will pay the bills. I hate feeling trapped. Just know that if nothing else, I understand and love you too.

Damn, no matter what I say I always come out sounding corny lmao. Oh well.

malakijr May 9 2010, 11:53:07 UTC

I don't think it sounds corny. Seriously. It means a lot that you're going through the same things I am (even if they're different, it's still all work bullshit). It helps to know when I'm taking deep breaths to avoid stabbing my boss or coworkers with a box cutter that I'm not alone in these feelings. :-p