You've been through a hell of a lot worse than most people I know. The fact that you've survived and you're trying to live your life as normally as possible is testament to your strength.
This post doesn't sound negative to me at all - it sounds honest. I hear you being in the present and accepting that, yeah, you still love John and you miss him, instead of trying to delude yourself into not feeling the heartache now (because if you do that then you'll just have to feel it again later and it WILL suck more then, trust me, I've tried that one). And also facing the actual anxiety and freak-out-ish-ness of not having a job yet. Most people go fetal with despair when contemplating that one, so the fact that you have to cry a bit now and then t'ain't nothing to be ashamed about. (I cried a bit that week I got turned down for three jobs in two days. Okay, I cried a LOT.)
The bad part is that you can't trade in "living real human experience" points to pay your utilities. Which sucks.
There's more, but I will send you an email because I don't think it belongs broadcast over the Internet.
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The bad part is that you can't trade in "living real human experience" points to pay your utilities. Which sucks.
There's more, but I will send you an email because I don't think it belongs broadcast over the Internet.
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