Im sick of how no matter what i say or how i say you, youre always accusing me of having an attitude.

Seriously though, why are you allowing yourself to stress over something said by someone who doesnt fucking matter. Worry about yourself not what other people think of you. Focus on you and your goals, not the people who arent accomplishing shit with their lives but are talking shit about you.

I dont know how much longer i can take any of this shit.

Im still not ok. Its been almost 3 months since Ti has moved out and some days are better than others. But when I have a bad day it feels really bad. Stupid little shit sets me off. I feel as though Ive regressed to my mentality and emotional state that I was in before I met Ti. And I dont know how I feel about him anymore. I do feel for him but a ( Read more... )

I just want to cry....all damn day.

Im just so sick of everything. I dont want to accomplish a damn thing. I just give up. Nothing I do is enough. Everyday I have a painc attack and i feel like breaking down and crying. Im not happy and Im not ok and no seems to give a damn. I just have no motivation to do anything at all. Im sick of everything. Im sick of it all.

I can't seem to deal with your emotions. I want you to be happy but all you seem to want to do is wallow in your pain and nothing I say can fix it. You have to take care of yourself and find your own happiness. The frequency of negativity oushes me away and I am remembering why I was questioning this relationship before everything went down. I ( Read more... )

Today is a celtic music and hot tea kind of day. Something about the 2 just soothes my soul and helps me focus today

Its amazing to me how different the world looks when you feel like a piece of you is missing. The sunset is beautiful from my backyard but in a way so hearybreaking because youre not here to share it with me. I sit outside in silence without you next to me to fill the void. How many times did you ask me to sit with you on the back deck to smoke and ( Read more... )

Stress, depression, and anxiety are exhausting. I am so damn tired almost all the time the last week and a half. I really hope this gets easier.