bastard LJ, you ate my entry and it was soo long, pouring out my soul in fact. I GIVE UP> I HATE LIFE!!!!! ARG!!~!!!!

I WISH I WERE SNOWBOARDING!!!! i cant get it out of my head; the sensation, the rush...god i need snow.

i gained another half kilo. ive been eating carbs but thats okay. im trying to boost my metabolism before my fast for maximum fat burning.

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bless me ana for i have sinned. it has been a day since my last confession. i confess to gluttony, the worst of sins. i confess to eating breakfast, lunch and dinner...as well as two snacks. i confess to 800cals. I confess to skipping gym. i confess to being hidious and obese. help me that i may do better tommorow.

im in a strange mood today. kinda nostalgic. i just went on a really fantastic school camp. three whole days when i ate whatever...just as much as everyone else...not only regular food but lollies, chocolates, biscuits...ect.ect. AND i lost half a kilo!!! How? you may ask. welll it was a camp to the snow and i spent about 6 hours everyday ( Read more... )

well i got busted. forced to eat dinner. forced to make lunch for today(which i am just going to throw out. Watched until i ate breakfast (a diet yogurt and a banana). no more food for me today.

I feel great. no food for me. im thinspired. i feel nothing but indifference towards food. i dont need to eat.

Ate today. wont eat tommorow. i bought vitamins. i will be fine. i'm going to let her save me. i give up on hating. I LOVE ANA. I devote myself to her. She will be with me wherever i am. i am anorexic. i am going to be so beautiful. ribs and hip bones sweetie. and cheek bones to die for. the doctors dont understand. at least Dr Francis doesnt. She' ( Read more... )