I totally hear you. I picked a sport where nobody can see me when I give up and knock off. People respect the work I put in and the results it gets, but nobody knows just how much harder I could be working if I were held up to it.
You've chosen a particularly demanding sport, and are jumping onto the treadmill that's already running fast. That hurts in ways words can't describe. And the harshest critic will always be you, because you're the one who knows when there's something left in the tank that you could have used but didn't.
Not much comfort to offer, then, except knowing that at least one person knows it.
two ducklick for youthirdbaseJune 24 2009, 00:15:22 UTC
remember that your hormones are going to be worse because in a room full of alphas, your body is trying to sync up with theirs -- and from your descriptions, you may have a lower number of girls on any form of birth control thank you might in, say a female dominated office or cast. So your body is pulling against itself, to try and make like everyone else, hence the upped hormones.
And you know what? I'll bet most, if not all of those girls, are glad to have you there. And at least some of them have been the slowest skater before, so they all know exactly where you're coming from and as a result, you have a room full of people who believe in you. (and an lj full!)
And yeah, hormones and frustration and thinking you're working really hard only to find you're not, in comparison, SUCKS monkey farts.
If I knew what pride was, I'd be proud of you for sticking in there!
Since I don't, I'll just say that the determination to do something is often more indicative of success than the current ability to accomplish the set task.
The pay off of competition is generally awesome because it is such a bitch to get it. You wanted it more and worked harder than most everyone else you have passed on the way to get to the point you are currently at.
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You've chosen a particularly demanding sport, and are jumping onto the treadmill that's already running fast. That hurts in ways words can't describe. And the harshest critic will always be you, because you're the one who knows when there's something left in the tank that you could have used but didn't.
Not much comfort to offer, then, except knowing that at least one person knows it.
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Boy, do I hear you on this. I feel that way at dance classes, especially.
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I really don't know anyone who doesn't feel self conscious or awkward when trying something new in front of people.
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And you know what? I'll bet most, if not all of those girls, are glad to have you there. And at least some of them have been the slowest skater before, so they all know exactly where you're coming from and as a result, you have a room full of people who believe in you. (and an lj full!)
And yeah, hormones and frustration and thinking you're working really hard only to find you're not, in comparison, SUCKS monkey farts.
There is crying in derby, and that's ok by me.
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Since I don't, I'll just say that the determination to do something is often more indicative of success than the current ability to accomplish the set task.
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If it were easy, it wouldn't be worth having.
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