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i came here to be vague, but i think now it might be more beneficial to be explicit. today i had an anxiety attack (at least, that's what i think it was- i'm still trying to get to a place where i understand my mental health). it was my first one in a very long time, and it was altogether disappointing. i have been doing SO GOOD since i moved here ( Read more... ) -
a minor bump
classifying my REAL AND ACTUAL MENTAL ILLNESS as "just one of those days" might be your way of trying to normalize and destigmatize it but to me invalidates it and dismisses it -
hahahaha!
i have been so happy up until now but i'm sad and lonely and i think i may love you hahahah isn't that funny? i swore i wouldn't and that you weren't mine and i might love you anyway -
I'm selfish and I know it
Ah, May. May has traditionally not been a very good month for me. From finals, which lead to stress and anxiety, to restlessness and worthlessness, to just general depression, it's always been cruel, despite my best attempts to love it. It's always been the girl I could never be friends with, despite my best efforts. Suffering through this month ( Read more... ) -
too much and not enough?
Tonight I sat with a dear friend of mine, and she told me that I'm "so much all in one" and initially, she was scared of me. I suppose she was trying to be complimentary; it was followed by a list of positive attributes (or at least, things I consider to be positive)- sassy, sarcastic, independent, nice. And I don't know the extent of why I'm ( Read more... ) -
The Friendzone is what you make it
I read, somewhere, ages ago about how the quote-on-quote "friendzone" is something you do to yourself when you refuse to see a friend of yours as anything but a romantic interest. You are the one putting yourself in this "friendzone." I've always stood by this definition in the past, and I think I still do. But it's a hard thing to make yourself ( Read more... ) -
"Maleficent" Review
Today I saw Maleficent with my mother and brother. As one of my top two favorite villains, I have been so excited for this long-awaited film. While I appreciate the direction Disney took with this film, I'm not going to lie and say I loved every minute of it; in fact, it kind of let me down.
*WARNING: MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS.*I'll start off saying ( Read more... ) -
Frozen
Warning- *MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS!* Today Nina and I went and saw Frozen. Seeing it on opening day was a stupid idea, my mother told me, but honestly I'm so glad I did ( Read more... ) -
Things have changed for me.
Over the past few days, I realized something. I realized that while happiness is a choice, it's a lot of work to make yourself happy all the time and have a postitive attitude for everything, especially when you're a girl (with those horrendous mood swings and all). That's not an excuse to be sad and mope around all the time, but it's definetly ok ( Read more... ) -
Yeah... still not Rapunzel.
Remember how about a year ago I posted a long rant about how I'm more like Rapunzel than one girl at school? Well, she "dressed up" like Rapunzel (Spirit Week. Character Day) today. Yeah...still not working it. Just saying.