So it has been a long time since I have updated in my journal. I have had a lot go on in my life the last month. I have been thrown curveball after curveball and I keep hitting them and moving on. (thank you God for that!) At this very moment I am a very lucky person. I am sitting at my old highschool, in my old teachers room (at midnight), working ( Read more... )

So I am leaving on a jet plane for Boston at 625 am tomorrow. I can be reached on my cell at 352-476-5091 if anyone needs to talk to me. I will be back on sunday afternoon so I should be online by then. Have fun and be safe here in florida!

Until now I did not know what it felt like to lose someone so dear to me. I have never felt sad when I saw someone I loved in my dreams, knowing that when I woke up he really isn't here anymore. The cliche' "life goes on" kinda sucks right now. It really does not feel like life goes on. It doesn't feel normal. I feel like I am bicariously living ( Read more... )

So...longest most stressful week I have every had. I never imagined that it would be like this. No matter how many problems my brother had, I thought he would live forever. Of course he will in my heart, but I want his hug after he beats the shit out of me. I want to hold him and tell him I love him one more time. Many people want to, but there is ( Read more... )

I love you Jackie!! I can't believe that you are not here anymore. I don't want to believe it. As we all sit here with tears running down are face we try to remember how happy you were no matter how much pain you were in. David and I remember all of the good times with you and it makes us smile a bit. You touched so many lives because you were so ( Read more... )

For the last seven months I have been on one of the longest, toughest, most windy rides ever. I have felt love and lost it. I have made myself a stronger, braver person to face the world as a single 20 year old bound and determined to succeed in what I have dreamed of. I don't think anyone knows the real struggle that I have been having lately. I ( Read more... )

FRIEND.........................................I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm gonna stop looking back start moving on ( Read more... )

EVERYONE MUST LOOK AT MY NEW PICTURE!

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That is my Hunny!

It's 'bout as bad as it could be ( Read more... )