Roger's still not talking to me. I dunno what's up. I mean, I hope he's not having second thoughts about *scribbled out ( Read more... )

I haven't touched my camera in a week. That's the longest I've gone without it since I first got it... I just haven't been in the mood to. I don't know. It's Buzzline, though. I know it. It sounds paranoid, but I really think it is. They've been having me use their company cameras to get any footage so they can write off the film and everything on ( Read more... )

Alexi Darling's voice is going to grate on my sanity.

Yessss. Okay, it already is. One day and I kind of wanted to stab her with my camera. However you do that, I don't know, but I'll find out. She's driving me crazy. And she's not allowed to call me Marky anymore. What the fuck. I can hardly stand it when my friends call me that. Never mind her. ( Read more... )

So Joanne's and Maureen's engagement party... thing. Was yesterday ( Read more... )

Okay. Let's see... last time I did one of these... It was after Buzzline. *nods* Okay.

...What happened, really? Not much. I mean, I got dressed up byhung with Angel a while the other day. Oh, yes, thank you for the little note on my... note. Kara. But, no, she didn't teach me to dance. I'm good enough with that already. *tongue ( Read more... )

Okay… um… I’m not even sure right now ( Read more... )

I can't do this. I really can't do this. I'm not going. I can't go. I'm gonna fuck it up. I know it. We're all gonna have to live on the streets and everyone's gonna hate me and then we're gonna starve to death just cuz I can't get a fuckin ( Read more... )

*lots of scribbled marks* *hardly distinguishable*

I want my old notebook back. I'd feel a lot safer. I really don't want anybody reading about some of the stuff I wrote. Like about secret stuff... like Nani. And Roger. And Sam and... And... Jake.Roger and Mimi are doing it on the floor. Like. You can just picture me flailing wildly. RIGHT THERE. ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting on the loft floor, half-naked, shivering and freezing ... It sounds like the start to a Twilight Zone episode or something. 'Start with the end! Work your way back to it ( Read more... )

Walking in on Mimi and Roger. Um. Awkward. It felt… very weird. I dunno. Like, I didn’t want to… Half of me just kind of felt like ripping Mimi off of him and screaming at her. “No, he’s mine! Let him fuck ME.” And I really do not know why. That was just… not me. I ran out fast… took a leaf from Roger’s book and took a few minutes to sit on the ( Read more... )