I want to talk about it, but why talk about something that i can't control. Something that cannot be changed. Maybe if i just hold everything in, then it won't be reality and life can go on as it is supposed to. I am on my way to the hospital.......

I can't even believe that they broke up. I mean i have waited my whole life for this and now that it has happened i don't know what to do. I do know that i love him and miss him, but maybe things have changed, maybe i have changed.

I always want what i can't have and now that i can have what i have always wanted, i don't think i want it anymore.

I GOT A BRAND NEW CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My mom and dad just bought me a white Saturn Ion 2...Brand spanking new and it is amazing.....I never knew how much a person can love a car until now...

Today was such an amazing day!!!! J and i went to class from 8-9:30 and then i decided i needed to go shopping. So we went to the mall. I got my ears pierced twice, mom says i don't need anymore holes in my head,but i disagree. Then i bought make up at Sephora ($20 for a lip gloss~crazy). Then i bought the new outkast cd. YAY ME...So I CAN SHAKE ( Read more... )

Things are simply amazing....School is so awesome....WAYNE STATE FUCKING ROCKS.......J is the shit, i have no idea what i would do without my baby. I miss everyone, but i am different then i was last year. i think i depended too much on them last year. I am independent enough to live MY OWN LIFE this year and not live vicariously through other ( Read more... )

The Concert Kicked Ass.......They Really Put on a good show.....NExt concert....Rascal Flatts and Brooks and Dunn on thursday and then NELLY ON SATURDAY.....He is going to be beyond hot.......

JUSTIFIED AND STRIPPED FRIDAY NIGHT......GONNA BE KICK ASS WITH JILL, J FROM THE BLOCK, LORA` AND HER FRIEND AND OF COURSE KOZ!!!! IT WILL BE TIGHT AS HELL.....

My Surgery is officially booked for August 7th......EWWWW...but i have 40 anti-anxiety pills to help me relax until the surgery!!!!! YAY TO THAT!!!!

THE QUESTION OF LAST NIGHT.....................

"How long have you two been together Alyssa?"

THE ANSWER.......

"WE ARE NOT TOGETHER PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

My parents have been married for 29 years today.....isn;t that amazing?????