_._ <---(lieing on my back in the floor) you can talk to me as you wish i dont mind well thats what i really need right now...i need someone to tlak to as me and not as the drone i show everyone. sometimes i feel like i cant be myself cause i knwo that everyone wants me to be someone that i'm not!!! sorry if i bore you just tell me and i'll quite! i dont knwo i just feel like i have a connection to you that is really cool i mean i havent judged you once since i met you and i feel like you have done the same to me thanks alot!!
oh and thanks for taking the time out of you life to care about me...i really apprieciate it.... i know i never say that enough!!
as you can tell i'm not quite feeling like myself anymore and i think i'm going to fail my senior year of high school!!!
i hope you get to send me a picture. i really want to see a picture of you...i mean i would rather actually see you (^_^) but a picture will work for now. i have a couple different emails too but i only really use 2...and just 1 for friends. i have my school email (clstonge@uncc.edu) and lynxyoukai@yahoo.com. of course, you only need to email me through the yahoo one because i check it all the time. i didn't know your email addresses before but now i do. so...i'll save them as contacts in my yahoo (^_^). i do hope you can come and see me. that would be so awesome...like i said, i'll keep my fingers crossed. hmm...i don't really have any other ramblings to do so...umm...ramble away *sits, waiting* (<-- i'm not very patient) lol
i sent you a pic....did you get it?....i guess you did and didnt like it so if you want we dont have to talk anymore....i guess that my rambling so far
yeah, i got it. the picture that had enough light was a little small. sorry i didn't answer earlier. i went to sleep kinda early...well, kinda early for me...okay, okay i got of the comp kinda early for me. i went to sleep at my normal time (approx. 2 in the am). even if i didn't like your pic (which is not what i'm saying) i'd still wanna talk to you. i think you are an amazing person and deserve the best and i'm happy to know someone like you...well, kinda know someone like you. not much of a ramble, i know, but that's what you get with me sometimes. lol ^_^
i ramble to everyone...well, mainly i ramble to myself where everyone can hear/see/read it. i would actually talk to you... of course, i haven't done much rambling here recently. i have been rambling a lot though...it makes people look at me funny. it's funny. lol ^_^.
it's all good either way...it is just a little preference kinda thing. i can't wear jeans...i look wierd in 'em. i know, more wierdness... it's all good...i try and wear loose clothing for the same reason.
i'd never laugh at you and i would never tear your heart apart on purpose...of course, both people i've gone out with said i am too cold to be with...so...maybe i do hurt people with my distance...
anywho, i'd never take you and rape you...you said ur mom or something said that...oh and i hope life's treatin' you alright
what if i said it was okay? lol *blushes* some distance is okay but not as much as me and my ex had i mean we never see each other and he was just an ass
O_o okay...i think you are thinking of a different kind of distance. i tend to be very emotionally cut off...i know i am. when i write i let more of my emotion out but i am still pretty reserved...except for with anger. i am vehement in my anger but i've never hurt someone...at least physically. even when i am with someone physically i tend to be quite far off...i go into long pauses and often show little emotion. so...if you are near me we could spend time together but i am still often off in the distance of my mind. i just don't want to hurt you because of my coldness...my emotional distance. you seem too nice to have to deal with shit like that.
i am also emotionally distant you can ask anyone that really knows me...expecially aiko_chan2006 i dont like showing my emotions and i have a hard time showing how i feel... on saturday i went with my real father to eat with my older sis and little bro....he abandoned me and so we have this huge distance between us and i'm at the point where i really dont give a shit...i'll tlak to you later cause the bell just rang...love ya, Rach
i have no problem with emotional distance...i can usually tell how people feel anyway. my dad left me too...but whatever 'cause i didn't know him anyway. every couples yrs or so he comes back into my life for a while then disappears...of course, i'm giving him the benefit of the doubt as i always do and letting him have a chance. i'm not holdin' my breath though...i got no question that i'd die if i did. see ya, Chris
oh and thanks for taking the time out of you life to care about me...i really apprieciate it.... i know i never say that enough!!
as you can tell i'm not quite feeling like myself anymore and i think i'm going to fail my senior year of high school!!!
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anywho, i'd never take you and rape you...you said ur mom or something said that...oh and i hope life's treatin' you alright
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