Hey there everyone. yeah. so my dad's a total bastard but we already knew that. And then my friend called me up telling me she was going to commit suicide and then she hung up on me but luckily one of my friends got over there before she did anything. I guess her mother and sister attacked her and she said she was done living. God i am so fucked up ( Read more... )

So today i found out that i have at least a slight condition of almost every single kind of personality, mood and anxiety disorders there are. I am so screwed up. And a part of me is like, maybe i'm screwed up because i secretly want to be screwed, just so i'm not normal. which is screwy in itself. but Yesterday i told Shay that we could still go ( Read more... )

yeah so there's this really smart cute guy in my physchology class. Boy is he fine. I like him a lot. But not as much as Robert. Robert is the only one out of all my crushes that I could actually see myself having a relationship with. But not for a while. Because I just want to date and flirt and and get to know people and get away from the ( Read more... )

Since my friend Bill is leaving for the army for five years on the 18th and Kyle is supposedly his close friend i called kyle to ask him to come to manteca before bill leaves. but he was saying that he has finals to study for.(like noone else in the world has finals, i swear all that boy does is complain)and then i said that if i was in his ( Read more... )

So yesterday I went out with a group of friends and this one guy whom I've been flirting with asked me out on a date. It's all very strange to me. I hate the title date because it really puts the pressure on. I guess this will be an interesting situation. I'm very much so enjoying the single life. I have like five crushes and I'm totally shameless ( Read more... )

So i've discovered that i have many crushes. I want all of them. Or any. Which ever will take me. I can't say who my favorite is because then if he somehow reads this it could screw it all up. I don't know what to do. Holy crap there are a lot of hot guys. Why i didn't see it before nobody knows. The guy i like wasn't in class today. I was so ( Read more... )

Well, i have a crush on somebody. But it's strange because after a break up i always find somebody to crush on and then eventually i make him mine. But right now it know it's not the right time for another boyfriend. Esspecially not such smart guy like him. He's so mature and pleasant and sweet. He truly cares about everyone. So i know he'd be a ( Read more... )

Well this whole month has been one long pull in about three million different directions and i still can't decide why it is that i'm so confused about how i feel. it's crazy. I'm so sleep deprieved that i feel like an idiot every time something comes out of my mouth. but i am excited about the holidays. They always make me feel great and give me ( Read more... )