True freedom can be just as restrictive as utter bondage ( Read more... )

'Peace, peace,' they say,
when there is no peace.
--Jeremiah 6:14

This verse has been running through my mind on several occasions in the past few days. I don't know why. But I find the fact that I can identify with it vaguely disquieting.

I've been dealing with the subject of missing a lot lately. Memories, mostly; nostalgia, what could have been, what I wish would be.

I miss brilliance. I miss cleverness, insight, intellect and intelligence…and gentleness. And perhaps it's the lack of the last that galls most of all.

I learned several years ago that I have a horrible memory for the episodic. To be more clear, while I can remember facts and figures fairly easily (particularly if I've read them or heard them several times), there's an even chance I couldn't tell you what I had for lunch today. (Or if I even had it ( Read more... )

Waiting, always the waiting ( Read more... )

I'm so scared. So tremendously afraid. This is quite possibly the scariest time I've yet faced--not a terrifying momentary startle, or minutes of sheer terror. This is that gut-wrenching nervousness and anxiety that isn't directly attributable to any one source (and therefore not directly actionable against), but which nonetheless weighs and ( Read more... )

I have much to say to you, more than you can now bear ( Read more... )

Today brought afresh to my mind a poem by Thomas Gray. I may have posted it here previously, but I shall post it again. In part, because I am too lazy to go look and see if I have; in part because the sentiment is one of which I occasionally need reminding. Without further ado ( Read more... )

It seems to me that terrorism in America is a losing game for terrorists, if their goal is in fact the advancement of their political and religious agendas in the continental U.S. However, if they are trying to bring about changes in America's global strategy, they might have some success...assuming that they have someone in the planning process ( Read more... )

So it's about desire, is it? About feeling it, or lack thereof ( Read more... )