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lycaness

Drabble J2

Oct 11, 2010 22:01

Jensen sat on the cold floor of the kitchen, not even feeling the chill sweep through his body. He was numb against everything but the agony in his heart. He felt useless, nothing, like if he didn't exist the world would be a better place without him. All he brought was pain and fear and if he just wasn't there anymore then everyone he cared ( Read more... )

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nightporters October 11 2010, 21:58:28 UTC

Hell. There's a lot of pain there.

lycaness October 12 2010, 08:20:30 UTC

Yeah, I know. Needed a release of my own and this is what came out.

cats_eye78 October 12 2010, 11:01:30 UTC

I've felt that.

lycaness October 12 2010, 12:16:30 UTC

It's amazing how common it is but how so little people talk about it. *hugs*

cats_eye78 October 12 2010, 23:22:13 UTC

Well I don't know about anyone else, but it is a tribute to blind luck that I'm still here. There were several times over the course of my life that I've been right there and a friend would call with their life in the crapper and needing, believing that I was the only one who could fix it. The fact that I was needed was all that kept me going. But, to end on a positive note, I'm now medicated and therapist'd up and most of the time am in a better head place. :)

lycaness October 13 2010, 08:29:04 UTC

I'm very glad to hear you're doing better and that you've got a medication that works for you. I actually discovered that it was the meds I was put on for my depression that led to this, I think because they didn't get rid of the depression, they just numbed everything so I just didn't feel at all, although it was all still there under the surface I just couldn't react to it. I felt hollow, like I wasn't even a person. I had no reactions to things, I barely functioned as a person, every smile or laugh was faked because I knew it was expected. Now I've started coming off the meds, only a couple more weeks and I'll be drug free, and I'm feeling so much better. Maybe I'll even get to have a life eventually.
Thanks for sharing, it is nice to know you're not alone in something like this. :) *hugs*

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tinkabell007 October 12 2010, 15:00:21 UTC

Holy crap... I have goosebumps all over. That was intense and realistic.

lycaness October 13 2010, 08:31:20 UTC

Thanks, was just a little something that was screaming to come out. *hugs*

engel82 October 14 2010, 21:14:15 UTC

Oh. And they say I write angst. *hugs*

We're still on for this summer, right?

jodean80 October 16 2010, 17:47:17 UTC

That send shivers down my spine. Very dark.