I know you may think any feeling is better than no feeling, hell you might be right, I'm pretty devoid myself, but pain and harm just begets more numbness.
You can smash your head apart, obliterate the numbness, melt the plastic zombies. It might satisfy you, writhing in agony as you do so, but the pumpkin might well grow back. Perhaps you should ride a while longer, find a roadside traveler, someone walking alone like you, or maybe a group, then talk and joke awhile, find happyness and joy, or at least look for it. The vodka, the knives and the sex might be what caused you to go numb, to take that horse and flee.
There is always one roadside hiker willing to stop and chat. If people want to talk to you, even if you don't exist, surely that means, even in the most miniscule way, they want you to be here.
Failling that, could you pick me up some beer and donuts too? I love a good snack.
i know it seems as if i am always telling you how wonderful your comments are... but i must do so again! not only did you make me laugh, you made me feel understood. you also put something into perspective If people want to talk to you, even if you don't exist, surely that means, even in the most miniscule way, they want you to be here.
and the reasons why numb is so quick on my default list??? def the stupid sex i had for about 10 years, 5 years ago.
whatever damage MAY have been done before then, was blown up and made HUGE by that soul-numbing, self-fragmenting decade.
Cool, we should have some ice around here somewhere, cos you wouldn't a warm beer would you. (Sorry, no idea if the fosters advert is played over your side of the pond, but its stuck in me head).
And thank you, its nice to know that what I say is relevant, and not just a projection of my own little head.
I'm not sure if I know that specific ad but I do kno bout ur warm-ass beer! I'm an american and need my vices cold and yummy! Save 4 certain things which r better left hot! Then again, its been so long, I'd take it cold!
Pizza... I'm talking about pizza... Yup, that's it LOL
(bear w me, its early over her!)
And ur words are relevant. Very. Love ur writing, btw. I'm a little behind cuz I fn live at work, but I'm engrossed and lookin 4ward 2 reading more!
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You can smash your head apart, obliterate the numbness, melt the plastic zombies. It might satisfy you, writhing in agony as you do so, but the pumpkin might well grow back. Perhaps you should ride a while longer, find a roadside traveler, someone walking alone like you, or maybe a group, then talk and joke awhile, find happyness and joy, or at least look for it. The vodka, the knives and the sex might be what caused you to go numb, to take that horse and flee.
There is always one roadside hiker willing to stop and chat. If people want to talk to you, even if you don't exist, surely that means, even in the most miniscule way, they want you to be here.
Failling that, could you pick me up some beer and donuts too? I love a good snack.
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and the reasons why numb is so quick on my default list??? def the stupid sex i had for about 10 years, 5 years ago.
whatever damage MAY have been done before then, was blown up and made HUGE by that soul-numbing, self-fragmenting decade.
PS donuts and beer on me!
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And thank you, its nice to know that what I say is relevant, and not just a projection of my own little head.
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Pizza... I'm talking about pizza... Yup, that's it LOL
(bear w me, its early over her!)
And ur words are relevant. Very. Love ur writing, btw. I'm a little behind cuz I fn live at work, but I'm engrossed and lookin 4ward 2 reading more!
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