These past few months I've been fascinated by music coming from America. Yes, I know, there is nothing new about that. I some times feel that 79 % of all the music coming out of the radio in my home country is American. But that is the modern music, names it will take me years to learn and decades to love ( Read more... )

Though I eat my vitamins every day, though I've been living healthier than the last few years, I keep on picking up cold after cold. Virus spread, I know, but do they have to spread to me?

The last 4 colds have been caused by children, passing it on while I was babysitting or merely visiting. I'm never going to get children of my own.

I found this poem on the Moscow Metro on a rainy day in November 2010. I have tried, in vain, to find collections printed by Bogdan Selivanov, but yet, to this day, the poem remains my favourite.

Я в осени лето свое потерял
"Я в осени лето свое потерял
Любовь, что в июле - сентябрь украл.
И сердце пустое досталось дождю...
Я с просьбой: " ( Read more... )

The wolf walks through town.
The cat runs over the field.
O I wonder
how will they meet?

I'm done crying

absentmindedly looking out the window

Tomorrow I'll live

Tomorrow I'll go on

I'm done dreaming

Dreams never come true anyway

Tomorrow I'll wipe my tears

Tomorrow I'll sing

Life i almost back to normal. My parent is out of hospital and though they have still not joined AA, they are in treatment. I took off from work for a month to get their life in order and fix up, well, most of it. Then I left. I couldn't stay in my home town with them for much longer without going out of my mind.

I cried a lot. But mostly it all ( Read more... )

2015

• Lost weight (around 40 pounds)
• Lost trust in parent
• Lost self respect
• Found a fantastic workplace
• Found a mission

1. Loose weight!
2. Remember not to drink that much next New Year.
3. Blind date best friend's boyfriend's friend? (or maybe not?)
4. Go back to Russia for a trip.
5. Write more letters to everybody (again!)
6. Be more social again...
7. Find that damn American penfriend to study...

Awful geography skills, school shootings, violence, saying ’I love you’ to just anyone, a weird law system, incomprehensible politics, XXXL life, super religious… I have a picture of the American life and of the Americans in my mind. For several years I have been pretty sure it is wrong, or at least not as bad. Back in school, my friends dreamt of ( Read more... )

1. Send more letters, receive more letters.
2. Loose a few pounds.
3. Do not try to, but succeed in finding employment.
4. Smile more.
5. Look people into the eyes when you talk.