Just thoughts.

[lunar_shrubbery]

I don't know what to say. I feel like there is too much in my brain right now, and yet not enough. I no longer feel the "high" that I was on all "weekend" in Bellingham, and basically since the 4th. I hope it's not reality that I'm coming back down to, yet I hope some of it is. Part of me has been a little out of touch with reality. Some of it

Comments

[psychopomp_girl]

We need to get together and talk about responsible grown-up stuff soon. I think we can do it. Be responsible grown-up peoples, I mean. But still be happy and have fun times, and adventures. :)

[lunar_shrubbery]

We do indeed. I'm not sure how we accomplish that, when youre phone is not currently usable and neither is my internet that now has AIM, except often at about 11AM when I have very little time cause I have to get ready for work. I'm posting from Terry's computer again. Any suggestions? My next days off are Thursday and Friday by the way. I work 1:30-10:30 until then (except tomorrow 10:30-8pm). Do you know when you're coming down here again.

[psychopomp_girl]

I will be in Seattle from Friday to Sunday. And, if you ever get internets working, I am online all the time.

[chaneecat]

Yes, I read all of your post. Yes, I think I know how you are feeling, because not only am I a Gemini, (Both in Sun and Moon), but I have had to learn how to fly on my own & without the pixie dust from Tink.

It's a hard road to go down, but you know that you will succeed and be a better person than you've ever imagined. Sometimes it's easier to jump blindly, but there is a time and a place for it. Now's the time when you have to decide which path is best for you, before you leap. It's called making an active move. You can make up your mind if you really want to. That's the key, you have to want it badly enough to motivate yourself, & you can do anything. I have faith in you, fluttery girl. :D

*hugs*

~Hope & Light~
~R~

[lunar_shrubbery]

Thank you. I just get so damn impatient with myself, because I do almost nothing quickly, including make up my fricking mind, so sometimes I just say "fuck it" to all the pros and cons because being impulsive is so much more fun and at least something is happening!...until I do something incredibly dumb because I was too impatient with weighing all the options and I wanted the exhiliration of pure action. Other times I think about things so much that I do nothing, or once I make up my mind it's too bloody late! So I don't know what the balance is. Meditation and talking to my makers used help. I haven't tried it much in so long I feel I've forgotten how. I usually just fall asleep when I try to meditate.

[justwill]

See? We'll have LOTS to talk about. Booze will make it all come forth in perfect clarity. ^_^

[lunar_shrubbery]

I'm not sure about clarity, but I'm sure it will keep the words flowing. Not that I need booze for that.

[hirtzenocker]

meow?

[lunar_shrubbery]

Meow indeed. :P How are you by the way?

[hirtzenocker]

Sun-drenched.
Your boots are still here, by the way, if you were wondering.

What's with all the allusion and mystery? Are you afraid people will be upset?

[lunar_shrubbery]

Yes, actually, at least initially, though none of it is really that big of a deal in the long run. It's more like stuff I'm fine with telling people individually, but not so much on the LJ, which is odd for me, I know, but some of the things that are going on/I've done are rather unusual. Also, it's not stuff I want to discuss on the phone in a public lobby near work, which is where I normally have time for phone calls at a decent hour, to call you for example. I have Thursday off though. I'll probably call you by then. No, I'm not pregnant or anything like that.