I have poison oak again. IT is painful but the half and half anti-depressing antihistamines are helping me re-write history. I WOULD BE DEAD IF IT WERE NOT FOR MODERN MEDICINE. Do I loathe or understand or attribute more to it than I should? Maybe it would be someone else instead.

Funny memory about when I had to admit that I couldn't read him. That I wasn't in the correct space to be receptive to other people's emotions. For some reason there was a very intense energy with us there,and with us a few other times as well. I can't explain human connection like that rendering it indeed inexplicable the way that it made me feel ( Read more... )

>I believe a new set of hormones is coursing through my body.< this has been saved as a draft for months now. It was my follow up to stickyfloorsodadrink. I have not been able to post anything livejournal worthy in five months. Mostly because I've been going through a transitional introspection which has been extremely useful in making me feel ( Read more... )

I was stuck. If even just for a minute, I was stuck. Nervous exhaustion from wanting only one thing. That one thing may not be worth my time. I need strong-willed intelligent people to defeat my arguements. I needed to trust the strong-willed intelligent people that I've chosen to surround myself with ( Read more... )

You're not supposed to need someone to tell you what's right and what's wrong.

threetwentysevenagain

(*)What would you do if you were trapped in the same place and every day was the same and nothing you did mattered?
(&)Well, that about sums it up for me.

I never want that feeling. But, there's no set cost for those services.

I can't find whether or not the rodent found his shadow, maybe it happens later in the day.

TO me ( Read more... )

and I make perfect sense.

(Disclaimer: Don't freak out.) Everyone is full of shit.

I don't feel safe. Not at all.