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[luminate]

Ryan and I have been struggling with feeling as though God might be pulling us in two different directions. If you guys could be praying that God can just be reaffirming in our minds that we're meant to be together right now, I'd love that. :) It's just really hard after the conference when it was confirmed for both of us that we want to do at

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[luminate]

Yeah, it is hard, but I think it's a great challenge too. :) It means we can't rely on our emotions or feelings (what we talked about all week at our conference) but we have to rely on the truth of who God says he is and let that be enough sometimes. Same thing with relationships - can't rely on our feelings but have to rely on the truths (we love each other, God brought us together, etc).

I think part of it is that we haven't had solid alone time since Dec. 18. We've "seen" each other, but that doesn't really count. On Christmas Eve I saw him for 10 minutes alone, and the rest of the time we spent with his family. At Christmas conference we had about 30 minutes of alone time, but that was surrounded by people around us while we were talking. Just not the same.

I think we'll be good after talking and praying together (we've never done this yet in our relationship so we'll see how that goes!) and spending time alone together. I think that'll really help us feel better about things - at least on my side!

[luckey_me]

I think things will get better when you've seen each other.

I guess I would just say to keep in mind that it's hard to predict God's plan for you. You might think this is Satan trying to pull you apart, but it could be God. Only he knows if you are meant to stay together forever, or if you should go in different directions now. I know it's hard to keep your heart open to that, and I hope that's not the case, but I suppose it's possible.