You smile at your friends and you don't even get a response, they don't even look at you. Can't they even bring themselves to look at me. I wish I knew what was wrong but at the same time I don't know if I really wanna know, they don't want to talk to me so why should I care??????
If they're not going to make an effort then why should I?

Lu

It doesn't feel right that in order to see how my friends r feeling i have to read about them. This keyboard is crap, i'll write more later on.

Lu

Too much has happened. Yesterday at work I got in trouble. As a result I got Ash in trouble. It was his fault but still, I shouldn't have said it was him. At the time though I just didn't know if I was going to have a job at the end of it and I didn't know what to do. As it happened I didn't get in serious trouble but just a bit of trouble and I ( Read more... )

I feel like such a failure. I have failed in everything that I have tried at in my life. I got some A2 results today and I did so crap, not happy with them at all ( Read more... )

Hummmmmm, I’ve just eaten my school lunch and want so badly to get rid of it. I just want to throw up. I really think that some of my friends are reading this journal and I don’t want them to. At the moment in order to stop people reading what I am writing I am typing this in word in size 6 font!! Therefore if there are a load of mistakes that I ( Read more... )

Ok then so I'm gonna eat properly, or at least try to. I still wanna lose weight though.
I have suspicions that people irl have been reading this thing, so please don't. Its hard enough for me to not just shut myself out from everyone as it is.

Hummmmmmm

L

Hummm, So I didn't manage to keep to the not eating thing and managed to wreck it as soon as I got in from school. Therefore today I really am sticking to it and am on the chewing gum and water diet. When I really have to have something then I'll have some salad but nothing more. Everybody around me is eating, usually this would make me want more ( Read more... )

I was going to go to the shop from school as it is now lunch time but I just can't be bothered, I go to the loo, then out of the school doors and decided that I really couldn't be arsed, its so much warmer in this comfortable(ish) computer room! Plus if I don't go to the shop then I don't eat, all I have eaten today is a snack chocolate bar thing ( Read more... )

I have just been on bus. Before I went on there I was feeling absolutely fine, then I read a couple of people's places, Lisa's in particular and it brought me down so much. I have got to stop going on bus. I've been going on there though for close on two years and although I'm not on there as much as I used to be then I still automatically log in ( Read more... )

So I'm sorted about tonight, we are going out, into town and Ash is coming and so is his sister. That should be cool, like that arrangement is fine with me, I don't mind when there are quite a few of us and Ash's sister is so cool (the coolest 40 yr old in the whole world!!)
Plus I'm feeling better now which is also cool.

Lu