Wanna know? I’ll try ( Read more... )

so yesterday i figured out the image that is the epitome of my life...

taking my mom to get tests done to check the status of her cancer and having her check over her biographical information to make sure its correct and having her marital status be widowed.

i hate this.

wow so i should be doing my homework right now ( Read more... )

at 5:07 am on June 30 (tomorrow) it will have been one year since my dad died.

Goodbye Chicago ( Read more... )

i'm not dead yet...
i'm feeling better
(all spoken with fake british accent as in Monty Python)

i quit... i just fucking quit

its better now
maybe things can calm down

he doesn't even see i'm upset.
i feel underloved by him right now.
do you care? i know you do...so ask me! about anything.

I'm riding horses again after almost two years and I feel whole again. Its been long overdue. Its a deeper peace than I've known in a long time. Gavin came this weekend and that peace is deep and loving. Right now I'm amazing. I'm going to live at home next year in my basement but I'm happy with that, I have a boy that loves me and I love in return ( Read more... )