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lovesrain44

Phantom Load - Part 9

Jul 08, 2008 17:02

Friday, January 24th, 1992

Dean made it through the week by avoiding the hallway near the auditorium, by taking the long way around for his geography class, and by keeping his eyes open the whole time. He hardly dared blink. His eyes were as dry as dusty bones, but at least his homework had been handed in, and he wasn’t limping anymore. He still ( Read more... )

phantom load, fanfiction, big bang, spn

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sephy1968 July 9 2008, 15:50:15 UTC

Wow. I'm so impressed. You took a difficult subject and handled it very well. It was powerful, completely heart-wrenching, realistic, and you certainly didn't pull any punches. Your characterization was spot on in every way. This one's going to stay with me for a while. ♥

lovesrain44 July 12 2008, 00:26:07 UTC

Oh, good! I'm glad to hear that, it's nice to know the story had that kind of impact. I tried to do my best with the subject matter, the idea for which entered my head and would NOT go away, no matter how much I tried. Thank you for your lovely post!

riverbella July 9 2008, 18:24:08 UTC

I was up to a completely ridiculous hour last night (or early this morning, rather) because once I started reading this story, I couldn't stop. What I found amazing about it was that it was deceptively simple. It was day to day life for the Winchester boys in the past, but with this absolute horror slipping into Dean's life and almost taking it over. The first incident happened so fast and unexpectedly that I almost blocked it out just like Dean. And then like water trickling out of a gradually widening crack in a dam, it got worse and worse. The ultimate effect was a sense of absolute realism about the whole thing. SPN aside, it was one of the most real and horrifying molestation stories I've ever read ( ... )

lovesrain44 July 12 2008, 00:36:07 UTC

Your post about my story reads like a an analysis of literature, and I'm completely BLOWN away by this! I mean, I believe that writer will write something without really realizing what they're writing about. Some say that if a writer doesn't intend a certain meaning, and a reader comes in and finds an unintended meaning, then the reader is wrong. Well I say that's wrong! Because the whole sugar thing? That's just IT, and I didn't even SEE it. But it's there - Sam's the one throwing sugar everywhere, all over the place, and it represents something! It's innocence and redemption and it's Sam. At the same time I feel foolish for not seeing it, I feel invigorated at the same time. Who knows what other cool metaphors I could come up with, so THANK YOU for this ( ... )

cjmarlowe July 9 2008, 19:28:04 UTC

God, my heart just broke for Dean here, both in reading the passages from his past and his lingering reactions in the present. And not just Dean but Sam, who takes on a fair measure of guilt himself when the truth finally comes to light and when he finally understands what his younger self didn't. Really well done.

lovesrain44 July 12 2008, 00:24:25 UTC

Thank you! That's really nice of you to say. I did enjoy making both brothers suffer, though I felt guilty at the same time. I'm glad you enjoyed the results!

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lovesrain44 July 12 2008, 00:42:22 UTC

Hey, you're not alone. I felt weird writing it, wondering why I picked this subject matter and why I couldn't get rid of the idea to torture Dean half to death. But there's something satisfying about a good character (like Dean) making it through a difficult situation. And to have that difficult situation bring out the love and support in another character, in this case, Sammy, of course.

And the story was mostly about Dean, right, but Sammy, he kept making such a strong showing, and was so fun to work with that he kept getting larger and larger in the story. I especially like him as a young lad, all full of spunk and energy.

I'm glad you cried - that makes me feel wonderful in an odd sort of way! And when you make bread and butter and sugar, well, you've got the recipe now, eh. Just make sure the butter's soft but not melted. And use white, white bread for this. Nothing healthy. : D

diurnal_lee July 9 2008, 22:25:45 UTC

I'm going to be nauseous for hours. That's actually a compliment ( ... )

lovesrain44 July 12 2008, 01:01:43 UTC

You know, I've thought about this post for some days now. I knew that the story could be an upsetting read, but I didn't expect this kind of reaction. That I got it, now, from you, is rather amazing. I was stunned by it and am still stunned. I feel rather powerful at getting it, but then wonder if I could I do it again, should I do it again? It's not that I want to upset people, but man...getting this kind of feedback makes me feel like an addict. Yeah...I take some more of that, yeah ( ... )