well interesting thing to ponder while i was in the shower lol... but i was thinking about sami and her death and what not i dont know how i got on that subject but i did lol.... and just thinking to myself i was wondering... what would ppl do if i died... or if i attempted to... theyd think i were crazy if i attempted to... but who would really ( Read more... )

oh well i hate it when mark talks about things him and sarah have done when im thinking about the same damn thing that i wanna do to jon lol... its getting about time someone gets laid around here jk lol... well im tired so i must go sleep lots of love to alls kisses night

ohk lol so sitting here theres a song that comes on the radio and it reminds me of kevin lol and all i wanna do is dance lmao... its Candy by Mandy Moore lol... i know it has somthing to do with him but i cant really rememever lol... n e ways what eles thats new hmmm... jons introuble lol didnt bother talking to me all weekend so he will pay lol ( Read more... )

ohk so i so want out of here im sick of it all im so ready to go n e where... im sick of my mom and my whole damn family... i just wasnt to leave i mean it wouldnt b so bad if it were like just my idmediant family... bc like then it wouldnt b so bad but its really getting to me living here with everyone and i dont have a place to call my own i mean ( Read more... )

ohk well lets c... im getting sick of the hapy preppy look on my livejournal so ill b doing some big changes to that very soon... uh jons funny told him i was writing again and he asked if i was talking smack about him lol had to laf... he was just playin around tho no biggy... i showd him parts of my oh so wonderful ranting lol... :) love him and ( Read more... )

ohk back again yes... im getting sick or writing in my other journal and ppl in the house finding it so i guess its back to the old damn drawing board... lets c my mom informed me of a trip to kentucky this summer and i think i a might go somewhere eles b go with or c just stay home... not to sure yet... id kinda like to go somewhere bc like i ( Read more... )

ohk so me ranting about life errr guys ya drive me nuts lol... i so dont know what i want. c i love jon like really really love jon hes different im not in a rust to b labled boyfriend and girlfriend... and were not that yet but were not just friend either and i dont want to rush and have thing well not work out bc iv found out in my past 2 ( Read more... )

ohk one last entry bc i told jon i owuld put it on here and show him so yah had to find some where to do it at lol ( Read more... )

ohk well this will b the last entry on here... im droping lj... but like n e 1 cares lol... well c ya all around BYEZ BABEZ...

my thoughts... could kill me... i think im seeing theings and feeling things i shouldnt bc i did away with it a while ago... mayb thats why i didnt... bc of fear. fear that id lose somthing. or fear that id gain somthing. mayb fear that id do somthing or god knows... right now tho my mind is a mess. i miss jonathan. i miss alexander. i miss ashy. i ( Read more... )