A Primal Right.

[lovenhardt1]

Title: A Primal Right.
Author: lovenhardt1
Banner:qafmaniac.
Word Count: ~58.000. This chapter 2.136
Pairing: Adam/Tommy (Werewolf).
Warnings: Sexual content, minor character death.
Rating: NC17
Disclaimers: The people you might recognize in here are NOT mine. I'm not making any profit, I'm only doing this for fun. There is no way this ever happened and so on. Oh…. And werewolves don’t exist either…. Sowry.
Beta:thrace_adams. Thank you sweetie for all your help, I love you so much for it! All your hard work made mine shine.
Type: Werewolf AU. Romance with just enough angst to make it good.
A/N: This fic is written for my dear friend dkymekare because she loves wolves above.
I had some really incredible cheerleaders on this fic!!! I love you all dearly! And I couldn’t have done it without you! So THANK YOU!!!

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Summary: You know that feeling of being in control? Of knowing what happens next? You’ve got it all worked out, knows it’ll be hard work but worth it. You’re so focused on carefully laid plans that you kinda forgot about you…. but then something or someone comes along and changes everything. Suddenly you’re not even in charge of your own heart anymore. Yeah. That’s what happened to me.

Sit down and let me tell you a story… you might want to put your legs up and get comfortable, we’ll be here for a while.

It all began a day I was letting my wolf have some fun in the woods…



Going home was a lot better than the other way around and this time Trent was with us. That felt good too.  It was nice just being in the same orbit, to share something again. We didn’t talk about anything serious, mostly just spent the time catching up.

I sensed Adam's presence even before we turned down our driveway.  The longing for him that had been itching underneath my skin all day flamed and made my skin burn and my heart ache. My wolf wanted to run to him and roll around in his scent just to show off the claim on him.  It was pretty obvious that I was doing a poor job disguising my own scents and keeping my longing subtle judging by the expressions on mom, Mia, and Trent. It pained me when Trent became quiet and stopped chatting to stare out the window of the car instead.

When we finally returned home Adam was standing in the driveway waiting. It looked like he had been there for quite some time so clearly I wasn’t the only one who'd been missing the hell out of his mate. I’m not gonna lie, that was a pretty awesome feeling.

“Tommy!” Adam cried out in relief when I got out of the car and ran to him. I threw my arms around his neck and he spun me around holding me so tight that my ribs hurt. He'd picked me up so my feet weren't even touching the ground, they were kinda just dangling as he kept rocking my body with his in an over exaggerated ‘oh my god I missed you’ gesture. Had I been able to get the leverage to get my legs around his waist I would have done it, clinging to him like a god damn monkey. But I couldn't so instead I let the wolf take over and rubbed my face against his neck and face getting lost in his scent.  This, this was home. It felt so fucking good.

“Hi. You can put me down now.” I laughed into the crook of his neck but not releasing my own grip on him. He just squeezed me tighter and chuckled.

“Nope, I’m enjoying myself.” But then he became serious and released his hold on me enough to let me get my feet back on the ground. He pulled back to look at me, his hands on my hips, keeping me close.

“God I missed you and you were gone for like what? Half a day! How did it go?”

I kissed him softly on the lips and smiled at him while playing with the hair at the nape of his neck. Telling him the same just not in words. It felt so good to be near him, to be touching. Adam raised an impatient eyebrow in question and I smiled even wider.

“It went well.  We got most of what we wanted.”

I sensed the others behind us and it became obvious when Adam tensed that he had seen Trent. Fuck!

“What?”  Disbelief colored his voice and he narrowed his eyes while looking at Trent. “Was Trent with you?  And you didn’t tell me?” He focused on me and I pulled him a bit closer with my hand on his neck. I wanted to close the door on the world and just let him see me for a while and even though I greatly appreciated his possessiveness, I wanted him to focus on me and not on Trent.

“No.  I mean yeah but not with us. Can we?” I pointed to the forest, “Can we take a walk and talk?”

Adam nodded and took a step backwards while taking hold of my hand, entwining our fingers in a firm grip.

“Yeah, sure. Why not?”

We started walking toward the woods and as if pulled in that direction we found ourselves making our way to our place in the glade through some unspoken agreement. The silence between us was comfortable and I found myself relaxing for the first time the entire day. The stress just slowly seeped from my bones and the wolf was content for the first time since I'd left Adam at the crack of dawn.

Walking into the clearing Adam quietly asked, “So?”

I glanced at him quickly and guided him to our spot, where I sat down on the ground. Adam followed and I cuddled close against his side.  He put an arm around me and I started speaking, “My actions regarding you were found acceptable by the council, but Trent was called in by Darren. I guess he needed some sort of proof that the whole pack really did welcome you and he had already figured out that the one least likely to do so was Trent.”

Adam was quiet and I had to wonder if he was urging me to go on or being careful about choosing his words. I waited for his reaction. “So I guess he told Darren that he did?”

“Yeah, but that didn’t exactly satisfy Darren so he asked if Trent would fight to save you, you know if there was a reason and your safety was threatened.”

“Uhm, why? I mean as a test?”

I smiled thinking about the fierce look on Trent’s face when he reminded Darren about what it means to be in a pack.  “I don’t know.  But yeah my gut tells me that he is out to make his pack larger or stronger and he's got WAY too much interest in you. It worries me a little, I can’t say why though, it just does. But yes, Trent said he would fight for you because that’s what pack-members do.”

Adam caught my gaze and he looked a little bit taken aback by that thought and I realized that he literally didn’t think Trent would ever support him in anything. “Really? Wow. And why would Darren want to do that?”

It didn't surprise me in the least that Adam just went right to the root of it. I took my time answering because the question puzzled me too. “Because he’s ambitious and his power would increase if he did. Both our pack and Mia's pack are large and I think he’s actually very pleased with the fact that Mia and I aren’t mating.  But he would be even happier if I had been out of the picture completely.” I took a deep breath before continuing,

“He even told Mia to watch her back because she was a little more vulnerable now. She of course, told him that she was tough enough to hold her own. Perhaps that was stupid but she made me so proud.”

Adam kissed me on the hair and nuzzled into it with his nose, his warm breath tickled and a shiver of pure pleasure ran along my spine. “Hmm.  Yeah, I can imagine.  So what about the alpha thing?  Was that okay with the council too?”

“No.  I don’t know why though. He just wouldn’t hear of it. I think it has something to do with you, I just can’t see why. You’re not a wolf and you shouldn’t be important to him in any way. Never mind, I become alpha next full moon, which is in five days, God, time flies.”

“Will we mate then too?  I know Mia and you were supposed to and how does that even work?  Since it obviously isn’t a sexual thing.”

I looked up at him and he winked at me sassily and I felt an embarrassing blush creep up my neck and spread to my cheeks as my head swarmed of images of Adam taking me apart in his arms. The scent coming from Adam changed too and I knew he was thinking the same as me. Led by that scent I ran my nose along his jawline and nibbled on his earlobe reveling in the slow arousal I smelled on him.

“We can do the mating whenever you want Adam because we’re destined mates.” I whispered into his ear. The arm I had around his middle found its way up his chest and around his neck and into his hair. I shifted around so that I could straddle his hips, getting as close to him as our clothes would allow. I kissed his cheek and his hands found their way under my jacket setting fire to my skin. I kept peppering kisses all over his face while whispering to him.

“The pack welcomed you, and that’s all the acknowledgement from them we need.”  I finally reached his lips and we kissed for a long time, just slow and thorough wet slides of tongues and lips, making us both gasp for breath when the kiss came to a natural end. We put our foreheads together and when I found my breath again I leaned back a little making Adam carry my weight.

“Had it been Mia and I then it would have been very much like a wedding, with vows and the pack as witnesses. But the main event would be the part where I would claim her and the other way around by biting and marking each other here.” I ran a finger along his throat and Adam’s breath hitched.

“That way our blood would get mixed and we would forever be bound together by that. Our scents would mingle and it would be obvious to the wolf community that we belong together.”

“Hmmm. So are you telling me I don’t get to marry you then?”

He sounded thoughtful and a little disappointed. The combination of that messed with me. I didn’t quite know what to think of it because to me, being a were, the mating was the ‘wedding thing’ there was no other more powerful way to commit to each other.

“You want to? Marry me? In the human concept of it?”

“Why not? I want to scream it from a mountain top that you’re mine. I want the world to know.”

“Oh.”

“Say you’ll let me? It doesn’t have to be right away, just someday.”

I didn’t have to think about that, if this was something he wanted then it would be like the smallest thing to give him. The easiest thing because he already had me. Hell, he wasn’t ever going to get rid of me.  “Yes, Adam, of course.”

He exhaled and let out a breathless ‘thank you’ that I honestly didn’t understand.  I had to remind myself that until a week ago he wouldn’t have considered mating with anyone and the biggest statement of love he could think of had been marriage.

Adam caught my lips in a tender almost chaste kiss before looking me in the eye with nothing but pure contentment and love.

“Now about our mating.” He said. “And I want that to happen as soon as possible, if it isn’t like it would be with Mia then how is it going to be?”

“Since you’re all human, then you can’t claim me, but I’ll claim you the same way by biting your neck and licking the wound to close it again. Do you remember that day in the forest? When you were healed and stopped drinking? I closed my wrist that way?”

“Of course I do.”

“When I claim you, by biting you and closing the wound with my tongue, then you’ll never be able to wash my scent off of you. It will be in your blood like it’ll be in mine.  Stronger on you though because you’re human and unfortunately your scent won’t be as strong on me but it will still be there.”

“Huh?  How is it that you’ll smell like me when I don’t get to claim you??”

“My body absorbs your blood when I lick your wounds to heal them because we’re meant to be mates. Mixing blood is always a way to link a wolf to another or to a human. Um, I could have saved your life that day without ever asking you, had I bit you. The thing is though, that is a very bad idea when you don’t know anything about the other, because a bond will always be there, you can’t undo it. That’s why I was so careful that day and only offered you my blood. I don’t know if I would have bit you if you hadn’t taken the blood when offered, I probably would have. I don’t think my wolf would have let you die no matter what, he knew you way before me.”

“I’m glad he did.”

“Yeah, he’s smart like that.”

“Yup. Hmmm so you’re saying no ceremony. And no hot sex to seal the deal. And I don’t get to bite and claim you because I’m not a wolf yet and you’ll not carry my scent as strong as I’ll wear yours. That’s actually a little disappointing.”

I laughed into the crook of his neck. “We can do the ceremony if you want to. But wouldn’t you rather wait? And give it enough time so your family and friends will understand and then do the whole wedding thingy? And who said there couldn‘t be sex to seal the deal??”

“Yeah, I think I would like an actual wedding instead. I mean if we don’t need the ceremony when we mate then yeah that’s probably the best idea. And really?”

He smirked and his entire body langue oozed sex.  I grinned basking in the pure want radiating from him. “Totally.”

His hands moved from my back down to my ass and pulled me even closer. But the smirk faded and made room for a more serious expression. “I felt like I was going to die today, it was terrible to be away from you and not be able to take care of you," he paused, "or keep you safe from harm.”

I sighed heavily. It seemed that Adam didn’t realize that I was actually designed to fight, to protect and to take charge. I never wanted the responsibility I was about to own. I never wanted to be an alpha, but none the less that’s what I was born to. I always resented the fact that the other wolves would submit to me without ever questioning if I was right or not and that’s why Mia and I began dreaming of guiding our packs into democracy even more than the way my mother was leading our pack at the moment. We wanted a pack where the leader took all wolves thoughts into consideration before making choices that would affect the whole pack.

“You do know that’s my job right? Taking care of you? Maybe we should just agree on looking out for each other.”

“I don’t care that you think it’s your job. When I become wolf, I'll be the one taking care of you. That’s who I am Tommy. I’ll always be a caretaker.”

Briefly I wondered why my wolf didn’t object to that statement and instead it wanted to cuddle closer. But then the ‘I wanna be a wolf thing’ became much more important to me because it wasn’t the first time he said that and last time I didn’t get a chance to dig deeper.  “You keep saying that, ‘when I become wolf’, I don't remember saying I would change you, and just so we’re clear? I won’t.”

Shock appeared on Adam's face. “Why? I want to share everything with you; I want to be a part of everything that is you, as your mate. I would think that’s pretty natural. And I want my claim on you to be the same as yours is on me. I want my scent to be just as strong. I want it all Tommy.”

“Um,” I wanted to tell him all the things there were hard to deal with as a wolf but I got completely side tracked by the sound of Mia’s soft voice traveling on the wind to me. It took me a second to recognize the footsteps with her as Mike's, mainly because I didn’t expect him to be with her. Plus, she sounded a bit odd, almost like she was purring.

“What?” Adam’s impatient but very curious voice tore me out of my musings.

“We got company.” I whispered.

“Company?” Adam was whispering too and I felt a smile tugging at the corner of my lips. I observed the edge of the forest for a brief moment before I spotted them.

"Hi guys!” I yelled across the clearing.  Mike was holding Mia’s hand, their fingers were entwined and I suddenly realized what it was that I heard in her voice a minute ago.  She was being seductive. My heart swelled and a feeling of relief ran through me. They would be so good together.

“Hi Tommy and Adam.” Mia tried to release her hand from Mike’s when they walked towards us but Mike wouldn’t let her.  I frowned a little bit, why would Mia hide her affections?

“Don’t. He’ll be happy for us, won’t you Tommy?” Mike asked raising an eyebrow, prompting me to answer, as they walked closer.  I understood that Mia was worried that I wouldn't acknowledge her right to find love. That hurt me more that I’ll ever be able to express.

“Two of my best friends finding love? Nothing would warm my heart more.”

I got off Adam and stood up, and Adam followed. When Mia and Mike had crossed the clearing and joined us, I hugged Mia tight for a moment before asking her, “Baby how could you even think I wouldn’t support this? Your happiness will always be important to me.”

I got a careful smile in return, “It just takes a little getting used to, and, uhm," she blushed.  "Showing affections like this, well, I guess it's a little intimidating.”

“Yeah, tell me about it.” I glanced at Adam just to make sure he didn’t misinterpret that and luckily he didn’t because he winked at me and my stupid heart skipped a beat. I didn’t want to embarrass myself so I turned my attention back to Mike.

“So you finally wormed you way into her heart? Dog! I’m happy for you. Just be good to her.”

Mike grinned and nodded. But I could see that he had something on his mind and instinctively knew that it had nothing to do with Mia and everything to do with me and Adam. The searching looks he gave us was giving it away.

“What’s on your mind dude?”

“I was just thinking, I, well we, heard what you two were talking about….”

“Hmm, the wolf-thing?  Or the wedding thing?” I asked. Adam made a little noise of joy and put an arm around my shoulder and I leaned into the warmth of him. Mia’s high pitched voice almost made me jump though.

“Wedding?  You’re getting married? Oh my god Tommy! I’m so happy for you two.”

I snickered. “Guess it wasn’t the wedding then. And yes but not right now. Right Adam?” I looked up at him and his smile, bright and forceful, almost stole my words. We shared a look and without taking his eyes from me Adam answered Mia. “I don’t know when Mia, we didn’t get to finish our talk.”

Mike interjected and broke the moment I was sharing with Adam. “The wolf change thing yeah. I think you should change him. I think it would make things much easier and I think Adam might be the solution to joining our packs.”

That felt like a punch to the stomach, why the hell would he say something like that?  “What? And WHY?”

“He’ll be good for you, for us as a wolf. He’s strong not to mention strong willed too. And he wants it. I think you should.”

“No. I just - how can you even?  I love my life, you know that. But being a wolf is not something you play with. We’re limited in so many ways. Adam shouldn’t ever wish for our life. And what the hell do you mean by the solution to joining our packs??”

Mike cringed and I realized I'd just raised my voice and that the wolf had claimed a place in the conversation because even Mia seemed to duck a bit.

“Just think about it Tommy. I think it is important and you know you can trust me.”

There was a plea in there that really pushed my buttons. I did trust Mike, but this wasn’t a subject I was ready to let slide just because he asked me to.  I needed more than that.  Taking a slow deep breath in an attempt to regain my calm frame of mind, I was relieved when Adam seemed to know exactly what I needed and ran his hands along my arm and took my hand. “Jesus. No and I’m not going to discuss it further.”

“I want you to claim me before full moon and after that you and I are going to talk about me becoming a wolf again.” Adam whispered to me.

The way he said it was loving, firm, and brooked no argument. I was so fucking confused. Why was it that when the others tried to push me in one direction my wolf growled and demanded to be heard and respected; but when Adam said something like this I melted against him and the wolf wanted to show his belly and the only demand coming from it was one of love and attention? Damn it.

“Adam -” I tried but it was kind of a weak attempt. “I’m trying to look after your interests here.”

He kissed the shell of my ear and pure lust spiked through me adding to my confusion. Sex should be the last thing on my mind right now. I needed to get out on my own, sort my head out and connect properly with my wolf again.

“I know,” Adam said softly. “But let me worry about that myself. You focus on our mating in the very near future.  Oooh I got an idea,” sex had snuck into his voice and my dick dutifully took notice.

“Yeah?” Mike said.

Obviously he'd picked up on the arousal in the air, because he had a teasing look in his eyes. Adam saw it and with a smirk, he ran a possessive hand down my arm until it rested on my hipbone.  He glanced over a Mike and winked at him. “Not one I want to tell you about.”

Then he made a damn show out of asking me if we could go home, to his place because privacy was of utmost importance. I swallowed and went from half hard to ‘take me right here who cares who's watching’ in two seconds. Don’t ask me how we got home or what Mike or Mia said before we left, I wouldn’t fucking know. All I saw and sensed was Adam, all Adam.

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