i am bored... in a great wonderful mood.... raymiah called me last night and wanted to comeover so i said... of freakin course....! I actually said "yeah.." We had a good time, he played with Nathan until Nate went to bed. then we cuddled up on the couch and watched our show.. it was such a pleasent evening, he left at a decent time and i went ( Read more... )

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... haw!!! i felt wonderful today, i got up about 45 miins earlier then normal, and actually fixed my hair and did my make up... and dang, i got hit on twice and got alot of looks!!!i felt pretty..... i am on a mission to feel steller 24/7 like i use to... i am eating some ice cream right now and its good.... i am ( Read more... )

not to much new, got great news today when i went to the doctor, for the first time in 3 yrs my blood pressure was low!!! even below normal!!!! but besides that i look good, my ulcers look better too... and i have lost 3 pounds!!!!! well its a beautiful day, nathan and i are going out to the park!!!!

i thought today was gonna be an ordinary depressing day.. so i went and got my nails done and got my hair chunked!! (it looks soooo freakin hot) and i was getting an oil change and my friend from work called and was like "when are you coming to pick up nathan?" i was like "in a lil while" and she said "well cuse you have something to pick up, ( Read more... )

*TAKES A DEEP SIGH* I have had some really heavy things on my heart lately concerning the relationship, or lack thereof between Raymiah and myself... I let it eat away at me and friday night I called him and left a voicemail telling him everything was off and it was all over.. Everything.. He tried to call me on saturday but I didnt answer my phone ( Read more... )

well nothing major has happened.. nathan got sick we went to the emergency room.. i puked up blood the next night, turns out i have stress ulcers.. the dr is guessing from work and school.. so i am not going to do night care for awhile to see f cutting back those whole 7 hours a week at work helps.. i am still gonna be working like 34 hrs a week ( Read more... )

i have a serious problem... not anything to do with raymiah, nathan or school or work, but with me and i dont know who to talk to.. I dont want to talk to my mother.. We are super close but this is a touchy thing and i dont want to upset.. i know i cant tell joshua... i want to tell raymiah but i dont know.. i dont want to tell my therapist cause ( Read more... )

Please excuse my jabbering on the last entry, i was tired, confused and i was just missing raymiah alot so my feelings were magnifed and projected onto my journal.. (Jamie, sweetie, you did not upset me at all...if anything you were a big help) Things will work out if they were meant to be and i know raymiah isnt a malicious person and wouldnt lead ( Read more... )

ok here i go... i was talking to a friend about raymiah.. about stuff i hadnt really thought about in a while, i had put it in the back of my mind.. BUt dammit, this always happens, right when i get a firm grip on the ground, i get all screwed up.. i have so much i want to tell him but i cant because it doesnt change anything, but i dont want to ( Read more... )

hey, this weekend was totally steller!!! it was so relaxing and so fun.. friday night was so-so.. very quiet, i dinked around online, talked to a friend from dallas for a couple hours, went to sleep at like 1 am-ish, woke up pretty early on saturday and made nate and myself some cinnamon rolls.. then drove up to my moms, took a power nap and went ( Read more... )