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[lovelythinker18]

*TAKES A DEEP SIGH* I have had some really heavy things on my heart lately concerning the relationship, or lack thereof between Raymiah and myself... I let it eat away at me and friday night I called him and left a voicemail telling him everything was off and it was all over.. Everything.. He tried to call me on saturday but I didnt answer my phone, I did listen to his voicemail and thought about something he said that struck a chord with me... that he cant be without nathan and me..and asked if he could come over that night and talk about things.. I thought on it all day.. on my way back home to nac that afternoon (saturday) I called and left him a voicemail saying he could come over and we could talk.. i was pretty numb when he was talking at first but there were a few things that he said that really hit home with me... I love raymiah, I love him more then he will ever know, I had just reached a point where I needed some straight forward answers.. And some reinforcement behind the things he was telling me... there is one thing that happened that i will never ever forget, i am not going into details but i never thought he would do... i believe him... now he does have faults and he has screwed up but we have to move on and make ourselves better from all of this.. i think things will progress wonderfully from here on.. I love with raymiah with all my heart... he sees things in me no one else does, he also has this faith in me.. i swear i get most of my strength from Nathan, Raymiah and my mother..nothing would make me happier in life to build something amazing between raymiah and myself.. only time will tell....
xoxo,
Angelina