So much things to do ( Read more... )

A LIST!
of songs to protect my heart, as it heals.
because pain, and shame, and sadness, and melancholy is private.
but it does feel better when someone else is yodeling your exact emotions, or somewhat.
and then,
songs to lift your spirits up, and know that life is more than just getting hurt. its about hope!
so here goes.

1. b.o.b ft. taylor swift-both of ( Read more... )

just read through my lj posts marked nus, listenign to fall out boy and now mumford and sons.  http://lovefloats.livejournal.com/29571.html i rmb this one very clearly for some reason.

i'm already getting emotional about tmr. hope i don't start bawling.hahaha.but yeah. its going to be bittersweet.

years of dreams and hope and losses and failures and ( Read more... )

I needz to sleep.
So much.

Not sure how today will unfold,but God let Your grace be on it,cos im just wibging it,and know that you always have my back:)

i sent in my mfa internship applcn today! yay!
then applied for seed programme, which got me wayyyy excited and happy again. i missed the magic traffick lights created. or maybe we created. i dunno.
ANYWAY
so now im working on ags internship applcn. IM REALLY REALLY EXCITED ABT THIS!
i can barely type complete sentences cos its just so much i wanna say ( Read more... )

shhhh,
don't tell me what to do.
don't ask me why i'm stuck.

you know what's annoying? we spent $20,000 on your education and you still haven't found a job!

shhhh,
dont offer me solutions,
don't drive me to the ground.
can't you see,
i'm already down?

just quit already. money isn't a problem. i can give you money.

shh,
don't tell me it's going to be okay,
don' ( Read more... )

Such a wierd day,like highs lows middles.hahah but I haven't slept since yest morning. So yeah gonna sleep now.
To the soundtrack of foster the people's waste and coldplay'e fix you.

http://journals.worldnomads.com/riane/story/86405/Worldwide/My-Scholarship-entry-Seeing-the-world-through-other-eyes

truth be told,
i miss my 2010 self. i was confident and fearless, and full of rich strong hope.
i still have hope now, but more the longing kind,that there will be better days.

I am titanium?

I sat in bed in the morning today just feeling like crying except tears weren't coming and my mind was so messy.

Its like no one understands,how my life does not make sense.
Like in theory it does.
But in reality,this feels wrong.
But im too scared to trust my intuition,
Because im not sure if it's fear.

Im soooooo confused.

I remember walking through the arts walkways last semester,
worried, but still hopeful.

note to self,
I had strength then,
I still have the same strength now.

Stop being so afraid!
Live high,remember?