i'm going to start writing on this again, instead of my new one. i miss so much everything i used to be. i am so different now. i realize i have no idea what i want from life. myself. my friends. anything.

i want to be my old self again, i just hope the downward spiral of depression doesn't come with it.

i cant read him, and it scares the hell out of me.

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in only a couple pictures.......


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"Changes in friendships or physical location may bring changes in your family. Someone who has been an important part of your life may not be there in the same way anymore, and you will be spending part of your time sorting through emotions about this change. "

I have done nothing all day. literally NOTHING.
i just got out of michelles bed for the first time all day. i feel so pathetic that all ive done is sit in michelles bed with her a skip and do nothing.

on a happier note, i am starting to talk to that boy i mentioned an entry earlier. :)

I've never had an actual "crush" before. Anyone who I wanted, I got. Now I have a crush for the first time, someone who doesn't think anything of me. It's strange ( Read more... )

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going from light/medium blonde to dark natural brown tonight. im nervous and scared out of my mind and excited all at the same time.

i have been listening to so much ambient lately.
i am very much enjoying it. suggest me something to listen to