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loveandpower

Addiction, Vulnerability and Truth

Oct 18, 2009 20:31

It's my six month annivesary as a Non-Smoker. I have no desire to smoke. I am amazed at the layers of detoxification I have undergone and continue to confront. A thirty year addiction does not just disappear. I used cigarettes. Let's be honest. And addict uses their drug of choice. We like to talk about addiction as though it is something ( Read more... )

addiction, 12 steps and feri, insomnia, honesty, truth, all my parts, surrender. smoking cessation, power, vulnerability

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mrj15 October 19 2009, 02:03:15 UTC

Good for you!
Love Michele

loveandpower October 19 2009, 02:14:37 UTC

Thanks. Love back at you, sister.

catbirdgirl October 19 2009, 02:07:18 UTC

thanks for mentioning the 12 steps. I respect that path a lot. It helped me a lot when I was dealing with a major sugar demon, and some codependency issues once upon a time. I've thought about going back, but it hasn't made sense right now. But if you ever want to talk about that stuff, feel free to drop me a note. I do speak program.

also there are some good online resources for quitting and staying quit of smoking- quit.net I think.

loveandpower October 19 2009, 02:15:29 UTC

It's not the smoking or the quitting, it's All the Parts showing up in the stark light of being "clean." Thanks for your kind words and support.

dancingwolfgrrl October 19 2009, 03:11:30 UTC

Without such a clear-cut cause, I'm also working to change my relationship to toughness and vulnerability. I'm grateful for your example and your willingness to be a real, non-perfect human being when teaching, and I'm honored to have the opportunity to see your power continuing to unfold in this way.

loveandpower October 19 2009, 12:32:08 UTC

12 Step Programs said, Progress not perfection. They taught me how to speak and how to mentor, organize, teach and keep it real.

violetmint October 19 2009, 03:21:08 UTC

While I'm not currently tackling an extremely tough addiction, a lot of this entry resonated for me. I have not yet felt strong enough to be in touch with my own vulnerability and loneliness fully, and your courage inspires me to want to make the attempt, even if the result isn't pretty. Hang in there with your process- as of course you will anyway..and thank you for teaching through your rich personal sharing.

loveandpower October 19 2009, 12:25:17 UTC

Thank you for your kindness. Courage is a nice word for madess! LOL!

yezida October 19 2009, 03:49:59 UTC

hooray for you. Even if it ain't pretty.

loveandpower October 19 2009, 12:25:27 UTC

Thanks,sister.

heartofthefire October 21 2009, 13:56:09 UTC

"ain't pretty" is what makes it so damned beautiful!

loveandpower October 21 2009, 16:09:07 UTC

Aw. Thanks!