I posted here over a year ago. I had a different account, that was more honest, but I thought fuck it ( Read more... )

Ok, I spent the new year sober. shock. fucking. horror.

I'll make some resolutions but they won't be kept:
- drink less, or less often (hard, cos i work in a pub)
- lose weight
- dont be a pussy

END.

Okay, I havnt been here since March 7th. And righbt now I'm a little drunk. BUT. Everything has changed in my life. Everyone knows I like to sleep with random men, including my parents. Im too dru k too tell that story now. But just to say. that was 5 months agp and weve spoken nothing of it since! apaprt from the random "whp was that that boy wo ( Read more... )

Things are different, and its ok with me.
Roll on July.

So the past few weeks have been weird, but I won't go into it. My head has just been fucking with me ( Read more... )

So I probably ruined New Years for a few people. I need to fix things ( Read more... )

Of my Saturday night. Watching Extreme Makeover: Home Edition for 4 hours. I always feel like I wasted the night if I don't go out at the weekend ( Read more... )

But I know it wasn't a dream. Its fucking strange how things go. Like when you want something so unbelievably badly but know in all certainty it wont happen.... Then when it does it confuses the fuck out of you. Now I don't know what to do or say. Its all a big mess!

I'm so tired. Like I could collapse on the desk any second. But I'm not going to or I'll screw up sleeping later. If I can lay down for more than a minute without choking myself half to death. I'm drinking the medicine out of the bottle but the fucking stuff doesn't have any effect. I went trough a bottle yesterday - it just made me have an ( Read more... )

So last Friday I finished work a little bit early to meet Barry and Gemma at 2ish for a driving session up to Leeds. Five o'clock gets here and off we finally go, with Terry too. Me and Tez drink in the car and force Barry to stop many times. Half the time we couldnt even make it inside services so we just went wherever the car stopped. Barry ( Read more... )