This is the trip,
this is the best part of the trip.
It's gonna be wild,
it's gonna be great.
You're gonna be stars,
but dig it.
We are never, ever gonna be this young again.

...he yelled, "Ain't this great!" and I knew just what he meant. It wasn't just the mountains, or being drunk, or the laughing. It was everything. It was freedom. Being free. Just out there, nowhere, nothing, youth.

If I gotta go first
I'll do it on my terms
I'm tired of traitors
always changing sides
They were friends of mine

I pop my hazy cocktail of tablets and capsules, the unfinished prescriptions of various stimulants and anti-depressants. It's Russian roulette as to which pills have had their active ingredients expired and which haven't. I have faith that together they combine the highs and lows of a single day. I wash it all down with black coffee. Things slow ( Read more... )

Just gave a week's worth of pay to the state of Oregon, county of Clackamas and city of Milwaukie. Next is my car insurance and cell phone. After that, my FINAL car payment then maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to start saving some money... Wait, money? What's that ( Read more... )

I pass a graveyard on my way to work ( Read more... )

I've held five different jobs. All except one have been through a temp agency and they never want to hire me (or anyone) permanently because it's cheaper to lay people off and hire new temps than to pay benefits. So far, no difference with my current job. I've passed my temp period but it just gets extended without a permanent hire ( Read more... )

I've got no plans and too much time ( Read more... )

We all have our horrors and our demons to fight
but how can I win when I'm paralyzed...
They crawl up on my bed, wrap their fingers around my throat
is this what I get for the choices that I made?

_____
If I spill my guts
it would only make a mess you can't clean up.

I'm currently reading this book, Eating Animals by Johnathan Safran Foer, who wrote Everything Is Illuminated.It's not a book stating, "Hey! Don't eat meat!" He just wanted to get all the facts right and get it out to everyone about what they're eating and make their own choice. I'm not going to become a vegetarian by any means, but I just may stop ( Read more... )