31 Days - The Preservation of Sanity
Title: The Preservation of Sanity
Day/Theme: 8th May 2010; I'm afraid to forget you
Series: Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles
Character(s)/Pairing(s): John, Cameron, mentions Allison; implied John/Cameron
Rating: G
Notes: Set after and contains spoilers for the end of Season 2.
He is here to get her back.
It is a mantra John recites in his head every moment he spends in this wretched hellhole, this future that he was born for but has no part in. A post-Judgement Day world where John Connor is not the legendary leader of the Resistance because he was never there to lead them. All because he chose to cross time and space for a girl who is less than human yet more than just a machine.
He wills himself to ignore "Allison", to put as much distance as he can between them. It hurts to look at her, to see the same face but a different... person looking back at him. He knows Allison is the template, that Cameron took her face and not the other way around but it still feels wrong all the same. This is not the cyborg who has saved his life time and again, who has always been there even when he hadn't wanted her around, who put her life in his hands because she was determined to protect him from everything including herself. She is not the one he has given up everything for.
(Perhaps, he considers, that is one of the reasons why he treasures her so much. She is the grey, the unpredictable balance of two worlds, a mixture of the best and worst of both sides. It makes her unique - makes her his Cameron - and isn't that what being an individual is all about? What does it matter if beneath the flesh lies metal instead of bone?)
It doesn't matter, he tells himself. He will get her back somehow and together they will go back to their own time. He'll fix everything from there. He'll make peace with his mother, learn what he needs to know and continue to fight Skynet as the great John Connor. But most of all he'll make sure he'll never lose her again.
I'll find you, Cameron. I swear.
He wants to believe that wherever she is - regardless of how impossible it is - she can hear him.
Day/Theme: 8th May 2010; I'm afraid to forget you
Series: Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles
Character(s)/Pairing(s): John, Cameron, mentions Allison; implied John/Cameron
Rating: G
Notes: Set after and contains spoilers for the end of Season 2.
He is here to get her back.
It is a mantra John recites in his head every moment he spends in this wretched hellhole, this future that he was born for but has no part in. A post-Judgement Day world where John Connor is not the legendary leader of the Resistance because he was never there to lead them. All because he chose to cross time and space for a girl who is less than human yet more than just a machine.
He wills himself to ignore "Allison", to put as much distance as he can between them. It hurts to look at her, to see the same face but a different... person looking back at him. He knows Allison is the template, that Cameron took her face and not the other way around but it still feels wrong all the same. This is not the cyborg who has saved his life time and again, who has always been there even when he hadn't wanted her around, who put her life in his hands because she was determined to protect him from everything including herself. She is not the one he has given up everything for.
(Perhaps, he considers, that is one of the reasons why he treasures her so much. She is the grey, the unpredictable balance of two worlds, a mixture of the best and worst of both sides. It makes her unique - makes her his Cameron - and isn't that what being an individual is all about? What does it matter if beneath the flesh lies metal instead of bone?)
It doesn't matter, he tells himself. He will get her back somehow and together they will go back to their own time. He'll fix everything from there. He'll make peace with his mother, learn what he needs to know and continue to fight Skynet as the great John Connor. But most of all he'll make sure he'll never lose her again.
I'll find you, Cameron. I swear.
He wants to believe that wherever she is - regardless of how impossible it is - she can hear him.