Sometimes we do things and we’re not really sure why we’re doing them in that moment. Sometimes years down the road we realize that something inside of us knew the moves to make to go in the direction that is best for ourselves. But before getting to the point where things no longer cause damage we create similar scenarios to what led up to the ( Read more... )

It’s weird some memories have associated smells. not bad or good but distinct. As memories fade and feelings fade I am sure the smell of a picture will fade. I will one day forgot the smell of how excited I was. the feeling of a picture was at cal Anderson park when my heart was racing. A shoe, a knee, a dogs head. something that cannot be ( Read more... )

Things that seemed scary in past relationships are not frightening at all now. The feeling of unhealthy obsession and needing, on both sides, are absent. The stress and anxiety from untrusting feelings don't exsist. I am still in disbelief when I look at her eyes that say nothing but "i love you; how you are". Even more crazy is how great it is ( Read more... )

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i did things that hurt her, but i made it clear that i didn't want to be with her and the only reason it was wrong was because she had feelings for me. i want to forgive her for what she did but just the position i am in in the part of my life made it a lot worse. the day before we left to portland i found out that i might have cancer. I got tested ( Read more... )

i have been laying in bed since tuesday night. because i've been very depressed. I feel too weak to get out of bed or to take care of myself or juno. I've probably lost so much weight. I barely ate anything in the past almost 2 weeks. I feel like being sad over a break up gets better as time goes on but it's only gotten worse. I found out the other ( Read more... )

why did i ever allow myself to fall for her. i just got out of a relationship with a terrible ending and here i am again liek i was in august. i try so hard not to cry everyday. my life is so dull without her, it's really not..but i feel so lifeless. i just miss her so much. i feel like i am missing my favorite thing in the world. i need some help ( Read more... )

we broke up a week ago??..i dont know how long ago...it blurs together... all i can think about is her. i just want to crawl in her bed when she is sleeping and get under her covers and whisper, i love you. i knew i was meant for her..but she told me we were not meant to be. so i threw away everything that meant something to me, that told the story ( Read more... )

i was on craigs list today...bored....i went on platonic only classifieds. It's sad...people are looking for friends on this shit! there are subjects saying "movie tonight" trying to get someone to hang out with them.there is this 66 year old lady who is looking for friends to go to operas with. i had to stop ( Read more... )

she called me back and came over. and we made up. it was great. i was feeling a little upset about it but when i got familiar with it again i was happy we were lovers. I hung out tonight for my room mate nikky's birthday. it was a lot of fun. my most recent ex was there again and it was fine. I feel the more i hang out with her the more over her i ( Read more... )