When you asked me how I was doing, was that some kind of joke?

[lizblackdog]

I want you to imagine a TV show happening with a split screen, like they did on 24 and... that other TV show, I can't remember what it was called. Both screens are showing the story of the same protagonist

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[tamena]

**huge gentle hugs**

[lizblackdog]

<3 <3 <3

[il_mio_capitano]

*hugs* don't feel like it's enough so I'm sending my love too. You will get through this. I know you can.

[lizblackdog]

thank you <3

[ulva]

You might want to check those anti-depressants because some interfere with thyroid medications. The SSRI ones nullify the effect of Levthyroxine. Zoloft is one medication that interferes like that for instance. I can't believe they put you on Levthyroxine and didn't change the anti-depressant medication. Levthyroxine isn't happy shiny people, but it's basically worthless when you're on a SSRI medication. The paranoia is probably due to insufficient medication and possibly the depression is too. See, many people are on anti-depressants for years before they get a Hashi's diagnose because of their depressions. Depression is a natural effect of having a thyroid not functioning like it should. Either way you would do a lot better if you upped the medication and went on an anti-depressant which isn't an SSRI type of medication.

I recognise this. All those weird mood swings and reluctance to interact with people; paranoia even, that's been my share too. It's... difficult to live with. I feel for you, I really do. *hugs* A lot.

[lizblackdog]

I did talk to the doctor about it. I'm due for another appointment... er, this week or next week sometime, as soon as I get round to making one. He gets kind of snotty at me when I show signs of having educated myself about any of this, though, and I'm scared to antagonise him. I badly need him to be on my side.

[ulva]

That makes me so angry! He has no right to get all snotty because you decided to educate yourself! What is it with doctors? Isn't it a good thing that people try and educate themselves so they can do the best of their situation? But no, there are many soar toes to thread on in the medical establishment

[lizblackdog]

Add to that the possibility that I'm imagining his attitude because I'm paranoid as fuck right now, which is a very real possibility too. I feel like I can't win whatever I do.

[wychwood]

That all really sucks. I'm glad you're hanging in there, though, even though it's hard; it's good to hear from you when you can manage it.

[lizblackdog]

<3 <3 <3

I'm still reading everyone. It's just I have to win a fight with myself before I can remind my friends list I'm still alive.

[crysania4]

Oh sweetie...*BIG HUGS*

[lizblackdog]

<3 <3 <3

(hugs for your Dad too.)