I'm tired and pissed off. I wanna go to sleep and never go to school again. I seriously hope my premonition of me dying in a car crash at 16 will happen. I had it like years ago. I am seriously so tired of all the shit going on in life. You can't trust anyone. You can't count on anyone. You can't like/love anyone. In all of those scenarios ( Read more... )

This weekend has been hard for me. I was really depressed on Saturday. I had to cook in church too. I didn't get much sleep either. Last night I talked to Billy for hours. We got into a fight...it was 2:30 in the morning and I wanted to go to sleep. It was just a stupid fight but I hope things are going to be ok between us. He's a really ( Read more... )

I'm so depressed. I still hate life. It's the same song and dance. Only now I feel completely alone. I just hate everything. I've gotten so much worse. I'm always in pain now. I have reason to think that I have something even more serious than PCOS now. I'm so stressed out. When I get stressed my ovaries start to hurt. I don't care if you ( Read more... )

How did things get so fucked up? Six years ago everything was great. Then December 26, my grandpa died and everything went downhill. He held us all from going completely downhill. He died, and we go speeding down, into problem after problem. I made so many mistakes myself. I wish Matt was never in the picture, I wish I listened to my better ( Read more... )

Friday was an okay day until last period. Mrs. Sheppard put on a Shakira CD and my mood just changed completely. I remembered something from a few years ago that is really stupid so I'm not going to go into details but it upset me. When I got into the car when my Mom picked me up I just burst into tears. She wanted to know what was wrong and ( Read more... )

I had a hard day...I don't really wish to go into detail about it though. I'll just let things slide, they aren't that important. I'm easily stressed because of not getting enough sleep though. Anyway, someone cheered me up. He seems to do it everyday when I talk to him. I don't think he's reading this though. But if he is...and I think he ( Read more... )

I'm a whore...I really am. This is insane what's going on. I can't explain though...but, whoa. Yeah, I wasn't in today, I was sick all weekend. Deal with it. Blah...I'm a whore.

I don't really feel like updating but I just wanted to put this quiz in that I got from Kelly. Some of it is true...


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My weekend was pretty good. On Friday I went to my grandma's doctor with her, my Mom, and aunt. Afterwards we went to the mall. I got black heels and these khaki colored Ugg-like boots that tie and have pom poms on the ends of the string. They're cute. Then I got lace tights (my Mom calls them tramp tights) and just regular black tights. Then ( Read more... )

When will I finally die? Watch, I'll live to be 100 and suffering from 5+ diseases just because that's how life is for me. I feel like shit right now. I'm usually in the shower by now these past few days but I just don't know how the day went by so fast. I still didn't do my homework and it's a full day tomorrow, also my lab day. That means ( Read more... )