hahahaha
i'm a fucking IDIOT

i want to be with him.
hes making it kind of clear he wants to be with me.

one problem.

lets take one step at a time baby.

it'll work this time.

i won't give up on you again.

i love you.

i really do.

i always have.

i've just been too afraid to admit it, even to myself.

fuuuuuuuuuuck
why do i always put myself into these fucking situations?!

this time, i'm really over him.
last night i hung out with one of my best friends.
we had mad fun.
he asked me about what happened.
and i told him, for the first time.
and i got to talk about it.
and he told me what he thought.
then i saw him downtown.
funny how he told me he was grounded until summer...

whatever.
i love when people fucking lie to me.

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i'm trying harder then i have ever tried to be happy. he can go date the fat bitch now, whatever. he shouldn't mean that much to me. i still want to talk to him though. i feel bad because its not just him avoiding me, i kind of avoid him too. but when he wants to fucking talk to me, ill be here.
but i doubt he will.
i'll live.

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why can't i just get the fuck over this.

today was suchhhhhhhhhhhhhh a horrible day.
but i am sooooooo happy.
i dont know why.
lol.

but i am excited for tonight!

wow, so that lasted a whole week and a fucking half.
i give up.

Heres an update.

Nothing really sucks right now, i guess im making a big deal out of shit that shouldn't matter, but my best friend is disappearing on me, and one of my other friends is almost ignoring me because i have a boyfriend. or maybe he just doesn't like him. but he doesnt fucking know him. its really bugging me. i just dont know why he's ( Read more... )

i guess things could be worse.