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the1nonlychosen in liveandxletdie

Back Again.

Feb 17, 2006 16:07

Going back to Los Angeles was like taking a long flight back to the past. Los Angeles... California... the US... they weren't part my life anymore. My life was elsewhere these days. And I liked it that way. I never really thought I'd be coming back here so soon. In fact, I never thought about coming back at all other than to just visit, as any ( Read more... )

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railroad_spike February 18 2006, 03:37:45 UTC

Just sat here after the poofta had left, pondering why things were the way that they were. Wasn't the type to usually be held in existential bloody crises, but when a crazy slayer chopped your hands off, and was going to do sodding worse then that to you, and when you tended to have a thing for alyers in one way or anothe rover your last one-hundred or more years, you couldn't help but look within yourself ( ... )

the1nonlychosen March 28 2006, 07:02:22 UTC

I guess you could say these was one of those moments were if a pin dropped you could hear it... just like that. I leaned against the doorway almost afraid of stepping inside. Why? I didn’t really know. I guess I never thought I'd see him again, but here we both were. Here we both were.

"Bu..Buffy..."I smiled even more when he said my name. I had missed that more than I cared to admit, but I guess he probably knew that already. He sounded a bit surprised to see me, but I was betting he wasn’t as surprised as I was when I had found out he was alive ( ... )

railroad_spike March 28 2006, 12:22:14 UTC

"Spike. It's good to see you."

For the second time in my life, I looked at her with shock and awe. The first time was back in Sunnydale when I realized that she wasn't the bot on those stairs, and now, an unexpected visit from a slayer who wasn't a sack of hammers, who I happened to love. There was a lot of morphine in my system to make the resewing on of my digits go away but there was nothing on this Earth that wouldn't make me feel when Buffy was around.

I fumbled for words and my mouth formed the pose of ready to say something, but her finger on my lips was better then me saying something bloody stupid or obvious as my brain tried to catch up with he situation.

"No... don't. Don't say anything yet."

I embraced her touch and looked her in the eyes. If breaths were taken by yours truly, then I would have been hyperventilating, or something like that.

"Thank you for what you did... back in Sunnydale."

That was my lead in, and started to tell her that I would do it again and again, but her sweet voice beat me to it again.

" ( ... )

the1nonlychosen November 1 2006, 22:22:30 UTC

"You...You did mean it?"

I nodded and gave him a soft smile. I had meant every word, he had done so much for me, for Dawn, for the whole world. How could I pretend I didn't care about all that?

I held his hand as he reached out to caress my hair. He was truly real. I didn't want to believe Andrew when he told me Spike was alive. It had been a little too much to take at that the time. But now, his cool hand on mine, things seemed more real than they ever were.

"I tried to go see you in Rome too. I just couldn't leave. The whole ghost of the abyss thing when I came out of the amulet and when my body was made whole again, I didn't have the stones. I had died to save the world, to save you, and I just couldn't believe that I could top that and the memory of saving you kept me going without seeing you." I gave him a smile. I thought about Dawn... she was gonna be so happy to know that Spike was really alive. He wouldn't even recognize her now. She had truly become a little young woman with strengths of her own ( ... )