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I was a total bum this past weekend. Mandy was out of town, so it was just me and the no friends that I have made here in Kingwood yet. I don't think I even changed my pajamas. I did, however, repair several things with superglue so I still consider the weekend productive ( Read more... ) -
Catching Up
So as far as this blog goes, I fell off the planet for awhile. Anyone who reads this probably knows what has been happening but I feel some redundency coming on, so here we go. I'll cut it short.
I checked back into the 'Wood in late August. I stayed in residential for three weeks. I then moved to stepdown, where I not only had a hard time adjusting ( Read more... ) -
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Shit just keeps happening. Crisis after crisis keeps arising JUST as I'm on the verge of leaving for CW-- as if I wasn't feaked out ENOUGH. Yes, I am excited to go back and I am dfinitely looking forward to it. But I am also scared out of my mind. And whether it's a sick cat or getting sued by a credit card company (that's right, sued-- long story ( Read more... ) -
New Poem
This is a rare but I suppose welcome break from my usual doom/gloom and bitter rage. This sounds really dorky, but this poem was literally inspired by a dream I had. In it, the Virgin Mary appreared. It's the second dream I've had like that and it's fucking incredible. I just feel so amazingly clear after these dreams, and suddenlly everything ( Read more... ) -
New Poem
5/27/07
The Afterword
I need you to know what happened
I need you to know the pain
I need someone to understand how
Exactly my spirit was slain
The act itself is just the first battle
In what, alas, is a lifelong war
Something that, though it might wane
Will always exist at your core
It consumes your identity whole
And leaves you with nothing but fear
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Male call
Ok, so recently I discovered two things: 1) His name is PJ not BJ. Oops. Lucky he never caught me calling him that. Also, I've accepted that the cute guy is gay, and we are beginning to become really good friends. Connecting over poetry and hot-guy-scouting and body image struggles. He's a lot of fun. Things may or may not work out with PJ, but I ( Read more... ) -
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Um, BJ has kids. He's about to turn 27; he's got two boys, a 7-year-old and a 2-year-old. YIKES?! But when I asked him his philosophy on fatherhood this was his reply: "My whole life is for them. When I wake up in the morning, I'm Dad before I'm me. I don't understand how it could be any other way. They're my world." This was the A+ gold star ( Read more... ) -
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So I'm a little freaked out by this whole guy thing. First my math professor tries to feel me up, then this new guy asks me out just out of the blue... and they're not the only ones. I've been told that I'm beautiful by a number a different people, including several of mom's male co-workers, and it's weird. I guess... I'm just not used to being ( Read more... ) -
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This is interesting. I got asked out yesterday. You know the gay guy from starbucks that I liked? Well, it was a friend of his named BJ. (Ha ha, yes. Go ahead, laugh at the scarlet letters.) ANYWAY, he asked me out in a really sweet way, and told me that he thought I was a really cool person but that he'd like to spend more time with me and get to ( Read more... )