I used to use a website that let you just put your words down and get things off your chest and then it would make them go away, Brittany showed it to me all those years ago but dammed if I can remember the name of the site so here I am back in action ( Read more... )

Grandpa died monday. I cannot stop feeling awful. Like my inside lost an arm. I do not want to be a facebook drama bomber so here it is.

I have, I think. I do not know how I feel right now. Well really I do know how I feel, I feel awful. My life is my work and my work is not the emotional rewarding occupation I used to have. The financial rewards are massive. I can pay off the Challenger by summer if I just tighten my belt. I can pay off my negative equity in a few months and then ( Read more... )

Someday my life will not have weird things happen, and I really do think that will be even weirder.

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Things are good and hopefully should continue good for some time, today I discovered a travel magazine in my mailbox detirus from Franks trip last year to eastern europe. As I flipped thru its glossy pages splashed with smiling happy faces I stopped to wonder what this drive to travel is based upon. In previous centuries humanity was largely ( Read more... )

Acheivement Unlocked: BA in Classics and History

I feel good for the first time in days, Nay I feel awesome! I have been productive for the first time in weeks and I once more feel like a person who can do things again. I have sprung from my bed and sallied forth onto my paper that needs to be done, and now soon it will be completed I am able to write again! It feels so GREAT!

I have to be careful, don't want to be shouted at for being a whiner ( Read more... )

Stomach is worse, vomited to start the day, called work about having flu, boss was "Unsuprised" and mentioned "We had had a talk about my attendance". Yes I PLANNED to have a mental break and I PLAN to have my meds kick my ass to the point I cannot eat breakfast and I PLAN to have anxiety so severe that the thought of going to class makes me panic ( Read more... )