Hello there, my twenty-fourth year of lying to the world. 

To think that there can be several more things that disappoint me aside from the morning...

I feel bad that I cannot write anymore. Not that I have a life now-- It's just that I don't have the words. Or the motivation. Or the discipline. Or...

*sigh*

Really.

My brain cells did. Please don't ask me how my JLPT exam went. I'm confident that I aced the listening part but I'm also confident I lost grammar and vocabulary. I should have studied more. To think that this is N4. It's not even that difficult. I just didn't study enough ( Read more... )

Although today would have been the perfect time to...

New heels! New clothes! New makeup! *Haaaaah* This endless struggle of making up for everything I lack. What am I trying to do exactly? I don't know...

What a show.

Ah. Well. First time I'm not wishing I did. (I guess I've finally gotten sick of it.)I've actually begun wondering how differents things might be if I were male. When I was seven, I even dreamt of becoming a priest-a male priest. I'm not even sure how I thought that was possible. But don't get me wrong, I'm dead straight ( Read more... )

I would not mind living if it were in Athens, around the time of the philosophers. Or in France beside Rousseau. Or if I were a student, a close friend of Thoreau. A disciple of Gandhi, perhaps ( Read more... )

Stop pushing the replay button, please! I want to study quietly but I can't focus. Maybe I really do need to get into aikido and practice meditation ( Read more... )

My research methods prof is awesome. So are my classmates. They won't let me die ( Read more... )

I dreamt of my mother. I was sick and she took me to the hospital. That dream felt so real and it scared me. One, because I was sick with something incurable. Two, because my mother passed away five years ago but she seemed so alive. And three, because the whole story of that dream is bothering me right now. Somewhere within those images, I was ( Read more... )

I woke up in a haze. Like, "Oh, it's morning ( Read more... )