tonight was something more different in more then one way ( Read more... )

i mean. i guess not caring that i shouldnt have kids right now matters. cause i have to prove myself to be successful by going to college and getting a great job and being able to support myself finainchally. cause thats all that really matters to being happy... you know amounting to what everyone wants you to be. maybe its just a game of life that ( Read more... )

well i guess you just have to laugh at the bad cause it will only get worse if you let it get you down ( Read more... )

do you think that if i just screamed at the top of my lungs someone would check up on me, or wonder enough to check out my scream ( Read more... )

Sometimes life seems too quiet into paralyzing silence ( Read more... )

damnit. i just want to have a regular conversation with you. no weirdness. nothing. im perfectly capable of saying what i need to say. all i want to do is get all of this off my chest. and yet i cant. i feel as if i cant talk to you anymore cause when you said that i could always call and talk to you that youd be there. but every time i try to have ( Read more... )

ive secluded myself lately. its not that i dont want to talk to anyone or hang out with anyone, everyone i know though is involved with someone. i dont care about being the odd ball out in daily situations. im use to that. its the fact that even when everyones left and gone, at the end of the day, my heart yearns for the void i feel every day.

whens ( Read more... )

just cant sleep. i have lots of things on my mind. i wish they werent on my mind but they are. lots of things are changing and i just dont have anyone to talk to about it. seems like ive lost a lot of things. friends, family, self control. ive just let it all slip away cause i have nothing really left to live for. it just seems like i cant control ( Read more... )

"next summer your deffinately coming to bonaroo with us"

well this was said a couple of months a go. it stuck in my head just from who and how this person said it. i just am confused. i want to understand what the hell is possible with this kid. but he changes his mind so much. like i know that there is something there between us and we both just ( Read more... )

im so scared right now....