Balls to this

[lindentreeisle]

I was expecting today to be stressful, but not THIS stressful. Shit went on at work and basically I had to chow down on an enormous bullshit sandwich, as the result of various...institutional failures, let's say. I don't want to talk details even under lock, because it could get me fired with extreme prejudice, so I'll leave it there. My

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[innie_darling]

I'm really sorry things were even worse than you'd braced for, and I know exactly what you mean about being frustrated that you cry in situations where you absolutely don't want to. I hope your supervisor remembers that you weren't the cause of the situation, and that it gets better quickly.

[lindentreeisle]

*hugs* Thanks. It was forgotten by the time I left work, as far as that goes. I mean, when I got back from court the supervisor called me back in her office and was like, "Look, you're not in trouble, but that can't happen again."

I seem to manage okay in these weird, tense fucked-up situations when I'm on my own, but every time my supervisors show up and talk to me about it in the hallway I end up crying. I think maybe the deciding factor is the added humiliation of having my colleagues/superiors SEE me fucking up and having to discuss it with them. Like when you're trying to tell someone about something awful that happened and you end up crying just from telling them, you know?

[lonym82]

That really sucks about the crap. Cartoons snd junkfood sound like a super idea. *hugs*

[lindentreeisle]

Thanks. *hugs back* After I was full of junk, I also played Prison Architect for a while, and by the time I emerged it was time for sleep, my favorite time travel mechanism.