Balls to this

[lindentreeisle]

I was expecting today to be stressful, but not THIS stressful. Shit went on at work and basically I had to chow down on an enormous bullshit sandwich, as the result of various...institutional failures, let's say. I don't want to talk details even under lock, because it could get me fired with extreme prejudice, so I'll leave it there. My supervisor reassured me that I wasn't in trouble, but. And the stress and anger and frustration caused me to have a meltdown and cry hysterically- not, thank god, in court, but it's still humiliating that I end up crying when I'm emotionally compromised. It makes me feel weak and stupid when I cry in front of a supervisor, especially when it looks like that's my default response to any bad situation.

sigh. IDK. I have a rule about drinking when I'm sad, so I'm going to go eat some terrible food and watch some cartoons until I can go to sleep.