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linden_jay

Worst mother of the year, table for one? Yeah, right over here.

Jan 18, 2010 14:37

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aliens, family, insomnia, the frog and monkey, not enough pepsi in the world, angst

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marag January 18 2010, 22:43:16 UTC

::hugs:: You're absolutely not the worst mother! I guarantee that every mother has slept through their kids' screaming at least once. I mean, if you'd had a full night's sleep and then slept through this, then you could worry, but hey, your body can only take so much.

What is this "sleeping while your children sleep" thing? ::boggles:: Are there people who actually have time to do that on a regular basis, as opposed to falling asleep sitting up on the couch?

linden_jay February 1 2010, 13:44:20 UTC

It took me until now to be able to respond to these comments, because I kind of typed this post and then RAN AWAY and didn't read it again. Denial. Fun.

I always kind of raise an eyebrow and laugh at this Insistence on the sleep while the baby sleeps thing that some people toss at new moms. I mean, yes, logic, but... does that really happen? That's usually when I'm glorying in being able to walk around without carrying something, or remembering that I haven't peed in quite some time, or something like that.

Thank you for this comment though. It was one of those 'need people to tell me I don't suck' moments, big time.

marag February 2 2010, 00:08:34 UTC

Believe me, I understand. Five years later, I still have moments when I need people to tell me I'm not the worst mother in the world :(

And yes, nap time is time to be in the bathroom without Barak trying to eat something out of the garbage can!

bkwrrm_tx January 18 2010, 22:49:05 UTC

Honey, you are normal. I've done it, my sister has done it (with the monitor in her room); every mother at one time or another has done it.

Your body gave out. You can only go so long without sleep and it finally caught up with you. The babies are okay - they weren't in any danger, and frankly? Crying isn't going to ruin them at all.

Forgive yourself, love on your little ones and repeat after me... I'm human. I love my children, and this didn't hurt them.

*hugs*

linden_jay February 1 2010, 13:45:13 UTC

I think more than anything I needed a couple of moms and smart people to tell me this.

They're okay. No lasting trauma, and my trauma is fading. Repeat until I believe it, man.

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linden_jay February 1 2010, 13:47:41 UTC

Thank you for this. I just felt SO ohmygod awful when I realized it had happened, and I think the thing that bugs me the most is not knowing how long they were crying. The crying itself, well, babies cry. But not knowing if it was minutes or hours... that's the part that's lingering, and I need to let go of.

They are fine. I know this. My mom operating system might have been missing the 'wake up at the smallest possible noise' program, but it got the 'mom guilt' program in SPADES, man. Just what I needed.

*hugs lots, and remembers to breathe and relax*

loreleif January 19 2010, 02:46:02 UTC

What everybody else said. *HUGS* I know it's worrying and you hate to think of them being upset, but you're human. And if you couldn't hear all that? You *seriously* needed the sleep. Your body just couldn't take any more. It is not your fault. *HUGS*

linden_jay February 1 2010, 13:48:41 UTC

Yeah, sometimes your body just goes screw you, I know better. Mine sure did.

Thank you, dude. A bunch.

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linden_jay February 1 2010, 13:50:13 UTC

It actually took me this long to be able to answer these comments, 'cause I just didn't even want to read the post. But everyone is smart and right. They're fine, no trauma, and it's all okay. And there is now a baby monitor next to my bed. Just for next time.

*hugs*