i'm sorry jen, i don't know what it is i really did, maybe it's because i'm dense or whatever u wanna call it, but actually i do miss you. again.. well gee i don't think i've ever stopped missing you. ok, so sue me i can't stick up for myself, i'm gonna learn the hard way one of these days, i know i have faults, shit lots of them, but i need to change them, and i need people to point them out to me like you always did so bluntly. but that may have been mean in your eyes but in mine it's showing me what's up, showing me what i have to do. u know you still have my birthday present :( even though it's prob been thrown out by now. i've been thinking bout you lately for some reason. prob because i miss the fun nights we did have and all the laughter we had... (don't remember exactly... but nooo no turn right... something like that :) ) well hope your doing good in all your up to. maybe we can talk soon .. thanks for actually mentioning me.. i haven't heard anything from/about you in quite awhile.. ur still on my buddy list, i just can't
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i understand that people have faults, i have my own, and now im trying to fix them. trust me if i didnt understand i would not take the time to write a form of apology to you. i cut out a lot of people: you, lisa, jack, jackie, tom sort-of, rob, i quit talking to amanda & some other people. the only person who got some-what of an explanation was jackie, but thats a different story. i went through a big stage of anger, and ultimately i really hated it. i still am angry with a lot of things, but i felt betrayal upon most things. i cut off people just because of one person, or one simple thing that hurt me. i was partying every night, and i was going home at night unhappy from it because i was weaving myself into someone i wasnt. the parties were fun, but the not the situations that arised from it. i left blake behind, and he was always there when i was upset.. so, i cut people out, and lately, ive spent time with him & secluded myself. i get that way, hurt easily by someones actions/words. we had good times, and they will be missed. we
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