Birds of a feather flock together so they say. I know a lot of people who are pretty....delusional. By default, does that make me delusional as well? 

Walls... if you're not building them then you're running into them.

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Started to write but then I started to cry. Guess I won't be journaling today.....

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I hate when I get like this. Too much on my mind and I feel like the only thing that would help is to pray. But there's so much on my mind I can't focus enough to pray. I feel like something major is about to happen but I can't figure out if it's good major or bad major. Overall I don't feel.... scared(?) so I want to roll with that and believe ( Read more... )

Too many emotions
are emotions driving the actions
or actions fueling the emotions
overwhelmed by next to nothing
in the end it's all nothing

I'm so over so many people! This "stuck" mentality folks have. If we're still discussing the same issues you had last year, the year before that, and the year before that, obviously you like things how they are because clearly you aren't trying to grow. Or if you just refuse to leave your comfort zone for ANYTHING... just stuck. ugh.

He just doesn't get it. It's because I love him that I had to leave him. It is a hard concept to get, but when you've mentally checked out, you're no longer good for the other person. One day he will overstand and thank me.

Sometimes I really want to say some things but don't because you know the other person's emotions can't handle it, but that just makes me want to say "fuck your feelings cause you need to hear this" but I also know that'll just lead to a bunch of other useless emotions and I just really don't have the patience for that. I'm starting to think some ( Read more... )

Bill Cosby was my trigger. The attention to his alleged sexual misdeeds, the victim shaming, etc. of the last month brought it all back for me. Because of Ferguson and now Garner, the news isn't giving Cosby as much attention and my anxiety levels have declined. Not gone, but declined. I'm going to have to bite the bullet and probably seek ( Read more... )

Had my annual Friends Giving feast today, was so happy to see everyone, but now they're all gone. The house is silent. And I'm still afraid to fall asleep because "he'll" be there. I dreamed about the molester again, can't remember what happened though this last time but remember waking up feeling more traumatized by his presence than actual ( Read more... )