Pain has an element of blank.
It cannot recollect
When it began, or if there were
A day when it was not
If has no future but itself
Its infinite realms contain
Its past, enlightened to perceive
New periods of pain.

- Emily Dickinson

I just looked at my profile page and realized I've been de-friended by someone for being inactive! :-O

I don't know what's sadder: the fact that I feel some kind of way about it or the fact that it took me a whole year to notice.

My internal monologue rn:

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Too often, I find myself thinking about what I am not, what I don't know, what I haven't done, and what I don't have.

Songs like this bring me back to reality. I wake up in the morning and listen to this one with my eyes closed, concentrating on the words.

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“On a deeper level you are already complete. When you realize that, there is a playful, joyous energy behind what you do.” -Eckhart Tolle

For some reason, I cannot believe in the notion of being already complete as a person, although so many philosophers assert that we are. Instead, I always feel like I'm in a perpetual state of inadequacy and on ( Read more... )

Maybe my impending unemployment is the universe's way of giving me mandatory time off. So I can stay home this summer and invent calculus. Like this guy

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Self-censorship is...mostly annoying. But I guess I'll have to grow even more used to the idea. meh.

Where ignorance is our master, there is no possibility of real peace.
-Dalai Lama

This whole situation is beginning to get ridiculous. And entirely too painful.

 I'm so bored that I uh...just looked up my professor's genealogy online. Yeah...not sure how that happened. It just did.

I'm such a stalker.